Fresh Start, New Beginnings

Chapter 31

Ryan's POV

If someone were to tell me a year ago, that I would be here right now walking hand in hand through Maddison Square Garden with quite possibly the most beautiful woman on the planet...I would have told them to get screwed. But yet here I am, standing beside Abigail Jenson as she premieres her movie which she stars along side Johnny Depp and Meryl Streep. It's crazy to think someone I only got to know properly 6 months ago would be such a big part of my life right now.

It's been almost 7 months since we were in Milan and it's safe to say alot has changed since then. Abi has started filming her new TV show which is set in Georgia and I am working with the band on our new album.

Nick and Olivia have recently seperated and as much as I hate to admit, I am worried how Abi feels about it. I haven't pushed the subject at all though I know she will talk when she is ready. I have gotten to know so much about her over the months and she hasn't held anything back so I doubt she will start now.

As I stand and watch her posing for photos I can't help but smile to myself. I must be the luckiest son of a bitch in the world right now. I never in my wildest dreams imagined one person could change my whole perspective on life as much as she has. I introduced her to my parents recently and they fell I love with her instantly. It's my turn to meet her parents this weekend and I must say after everything I have heard, I am both nervous and excited.

"Baby are you ready to go inside" Abi's voice cut through my thoughts as she touched my arm. She looks amazing in her floor length red dress and matching shoes, her hair has been pinned into a side plait with loose strands. One word somes her up perfectly...HOT. I put my hand in the small of her back and lead her to the entrance. We both laugh at the cameras clicking and flashing behind us.

"Let's hope neither of us slip and fall on our faces" Meryl laughs with Abi as she walks next to us "Could you imagine the headlines?"

"I have probably already been in those headlines" Abi smirks as she reminds us of her past scandals.

I follow her into the building, as I look behind me I see Leroy following "Alright man" I smile "Is everything ok?" I continue under my breath hoping Abi doesn't hear me.

"Yeah everything looks fine" Leroy replies as he puts his hand on my shoulder and turns his attention to Abi "You look incredible" he smiles as he kisses her cheek.

"Wow I see you have made an effort too" Abigail jokes "I will have to watch out tonight, I may have competition"

We are led to our seats by an official, Abi sits in between me and Johnny. Never in a million years did I think I would be in this position, my girlfriend wedged between me and one of the most legendary actors of our time "So Ryan have you prepared yourself for Abigail's naughty scenes" Meryl Streep's voice cuts in from the other side of Johnny.

"Yeah I have been mentally prepared" I reply with a warm smile.

"That's good" Meryl laughs slightly "Because here's a tip, you think most of these people will be watching the movie. But what they will really be watching is your reaction to the movie...especially the naughty parts"

Shit...I did not need to know that i thought as I felt Abi's hand in mine, I wasn't sure if it was for reassurance or through fear of what I was about to witness. I smiled at her and linked my fingers through hers, hoping she would know I didn't care what I was about to watch, my feelings for her wouldn't change.

X-x-x

The movie was incredible and thats not just me being bias, my whole respect of her as an actress shifted. She was amazing playing the part of a character that was so quiet and frail, the complete opposite of Abi's real personality. Even the love scenes weren't so bad, I wasn't watching my girlfriend on screen. I had got so lost in the woman that was Caitlin Jacobs, a character Abi was portraying perfectly. I wasn't surprised to hear the audience applause at the end of the movie.

"It's finally over" Johnny sighed, Abi nodded and kissed Johnny's cheek "You were amazing Ab's, I told you, you had nothing to worry about"

"Thank you" Abigail smiled and then looked over to Meryl who stood a little to kiss Abi's cheek, she cupped her face in her hands.

"I couldn't be prouder of you if I was your mother, I look forward to our next movie together" she smiled as she returned to her seat.

Abi then turned to me "So what did you think?" She looked nervous when she asked me this.

"Incredible" was the only word I could manage "You are amazing" I kissed her lips gently and watched her blushing as the director and producer of the movie credited her, Meryl and Johnny for their performances.

X-x-x

There was an after party for the premiere guests. Abi was reluctant to go but she agreed to show her face for an hour. I knew she had something on her mind and although I didn't want to push her I thought maybe I could help "Baby is everything ok? You haven't said much and bout Nick and Olivia"

"What?" I had disturbed her in thought "Sorry babe, I haven't said anything because it doesn't bother me. Well not as much as I thought it would"

"So what is it?" I asked hoping I wasn't about to cause an argument.

"Not caring about Nick and Olivia has made me realise something has changed, he isn't my concern anymore...obviously I still care what happens to him because he is Freya's dad, but that's it, I guess what I am trying to say is he doesn't hold my heart anymore"

I couldn't speak, I knew exactly where this was going. As I looked at her I realised she was starting to get embarrassed and uncomfortable "Hey listen I think we both now that this is more than just something to kill time" I try and give her the confidence to continue.

"Yeah, let's face it we knew that a long time ago" Abi smiled, she relaxed a little "Things between us are amazing right now and I am scared that the way I am feeling might ruin that"

"Then tell me how you feel, you never know I might just feel the same way" I have an idea what is coming next. If I'm completely honest I have been wanting to say it myself for the last few weeks.

"Ok" Abi quickly takes a glass of champagne of a waiters tray and necks it back, she then raises her eyebrows smiles and takes another.

"That's the good stuff" she smiles "Thank you" she says to the waiter and turns back to me. I can't help but laugh by this point, she is never anything other than herself. This is why I love her.

"Ok the reason I have been quiet over the last few days is because I have been debating whether or not I should tell you how I feel" she seems to have found some confidence in the champagne.

"You about done" I chuckle as she sips her second glass a little less desperately.

"Yep" she replies "God I wish this was vodka" she adds "Ryan I am in love with you and I have been for a while, that's why I felt so weird about Nick and Olivia breaking up. It didn't bother me because I am in love with you" she said it twice, mainly to confirm the fact I think. I loop and arm around her waist and pull her closer.

"That's good" I tease, she looks up at me with a sense of vaunrabulity. I realise now is not the time to play "Because I love you too" I say before kissing her gently "You have changed my life for the better and I never want to go back to not having you in my life Abigail Jenson"