My Time As A Demon Slayer (Kimetsu No Yaiba x Male Reader)

Speaking Feelings (CH.19)

Shinobu's Pov

I was simply washing some plates with Y/N by my side. I was still pretty embarrassed by what almost happened in the room, but fortunately, he didn't really talk about that with me yet, which was a bit of a relief. Right now, I just wanted to finish cleaning the dishes, and go to my room to screech into my pillows. I was still really embarrassed.

Every now and then we would touch shoulders, and it seemed as we were equally embarrassed, since every time we touched, we would immediately separate. We almost made some things fall, but we were able to stop most of them, so it wasn't a problem, or at least, it wasn't, until a plate finally fell to the floor, and I had to clean it.

I just let out a sigh while kneeling down, but just as I was about to reach out for it, I bumped my head against something, and it hurt quite a bit. "Ughh." I groaned in pain, only to look up with a clearly angry face, only to see that it was Y/N, who had kneeled down as well. "What are you doing Y/N?" I also realized that I sounded a bit angrier than I should've, so as he replied to me, I took a moment to breath and calm down.

"Sorry, Kocho. I just thought I would pick it up for you." Honestly, it was hard to get annoyed by this, and instead I got a bit embarrassed, which was annoying, in an ironic way I would say.

I was about to get angry again, but I managed to calm down and say. "I-It's fine...I'll do it." He also seemed to be embarrassed, so he simply nodded and got back with the plates.

It didn't take me that much to clean off the plate, and once I was done with that, I got back to wash the dishes, and there was only just a few left, so I kept helping. This time, rather than being embarrassed, it was just uncomfortable. For my part, I wanted to be annoyed with him, but it was hard this time. The bump was angering, and his way of talking got on my nerves, which didn't help at all.

This time, I just wanted to ignore him until I managed to rearrange my thoughts, but he at least wanted to get things a bit settled, so he asked. "Umm...You know...about what happened earlier..." He vaguely said, so, without turning to look at him, I asked.

"What is it?" Somehow managing to hide my fear and nervousness towards this conversation.

He took quite some time to breath, think, and basically just arrange everything inside his head before asking. "Well...I just wanted to know if we were...alright? I don't know...I just want to know that I didn't step on any boundaries that might've made you uncomfortable." And honestly, this was so like him. If anyone was to apologize for something like this, then it was him.

As for me, I really didn't know. I didn't even give myself time to think if I was annoyed, excited, creped out, or what. I didn't answer him, and I really wasn't going to do, not right now, so, with a sigh, I said. "Honestly, I don't know. I'm not even sure about what we did back there, and I don't really want to talk about it right now." I was just hoping he wouldn't pry too much, but something told me he would.

I just waited for his reply, dreading what it would be. Certainly, I wouldn't hate him just for this, but I wasn't so sure about him, and that was something I didn't want at all. As annoying as he might get, Y/N is someone fun to hang around with, and even if it was just as friendship, I wanted to keep it up for a while more.

My best bet was to hope that he would just let it be and we could talk it later calmly, and fortunately, he did. "A-Alright, I'll wait. I don't want to push you into anything. I just want to know that we are fine. Honestly, I wouldn't like to stop being friends with you." And then flashed his goofy smile, which, for some reason, I was glad to see.

I let out a relieved sigh, and then said. "Don't worry. I don't think I'm mad. Just confused. I just need to gather my thoughts. Thanks for understanding." I then got up to him, and left a peck on his cheek, and immediately after realized what I just did.