The story no one knows how to tell right

27. Chapter - It almost happened again, but ...

*POV Laura*

When I was alone in my room, I flopped down on the bed and paused for a minute. The bedding was still the same as the first night I stayed with her. When I saw her again earlier at the airport, I could have burst with happiness. Her hug was just so beautiful. Since the kiss in London and the advice from Rose something had changed in me, and I have to say I miss that feeling that was there between us in the storage room. This flutter in my stomach. All the doubts I kept thinking about in London were suddenly gone. But I wasn't sure yet if I wanted to be in a relationship with a woman. I had yet to figure that out. And preferably quickly. If what she said in London was true about wanting to be more than just friends, I didn't want her to change her mind about it until I was sure. I checked my phone for a moment and then disappeared into the bathroom before heading back downstairs to the kitchen. I was the first to come back. So, I sat on the sofa and waited. Batman and Ella came up to me and greeted me with a bark. Ella laid down directly on my lap, and I started scratching her.

 After a few minutes, Demi came down and saw me sitting there. She took out her phone and took a picture of me and Ella. "You both look very cute together." - "That's mainly due to Ella!" I said, giggling. "Maybe 50 percent, the other 50 are you!" - "Don't say something like that, otherwise I'll be quite embarrassed!" - "Woah, just the truth LJ. And you don't have to. It's just me," said Demi, sitting across from me. What's that supposed to mean, it's just her. That's exactly why I get embarrassed because it's her and nobody else. When Auri says something like that to me, I can handle it well, although I hate compliments. But when she compliments me, it's just different. Then I get very hip and nervous and don't know what to say. What the fuck is wrong with me...! We waited in silence for a few more minutes until Rose and Auri came back. "Ok, Guys. I'd say we're going to go and look for a restaurant. Are you hungry yet?" Demi asked the group. "Oh yes. There was only a small bag of peanuts on the plane," Auri said and grabbed Demi's arm, who had stood up meanwhile and was holding her bag and walked with her towards the garage. I got up too and Rose and we followed them. "You okay LJ?" Rose asked me quietly so the others couldn't hear. "Yes, everything is fine so far, I just think that I'm slowly becoming clear about my feelings, and I don't know how to deal with them..." I whispered to her. "But that's a good thing. If you don't know how you and she are doing, you should just talk about it. Trust me, that's the best thing you can do. That's what I did with Aurora back then. Do you remember when we first decided to be friends and then became a couple? I confessed my feelings to her one evening because I couldn't bear being near her all the time and not being able to touch her or kiss her. I plucked up the courage and told her. As it turned out, she felt the same way, and look where we both are now." - "Yes, I can still remember that well. Auri had only talked about you the whole time, if you hadn't confessed your feelings to her, I would have told you... I almost couldn't stand it anymore... Sorry but Not sorry! I know you're right... I should talk to her. But before that, I should think about what exactly I want to say to her... otherwise I'll stand in front of her like an idiot and can't get a word out. " - "Yes, maybe you should!" we laughed. Meanwhile, Auri had sat in the passenger seat, so I had to sit in the back next to Rose. 

Demi drove off. I was staring out the window the whole time, wondering back and forth. When is the right moment for such a conversation? Should I tell her at the end of the weekend? Or should I do it as soon as possible? So many questions floated around in my head. But the biggest question was what I should tell her. That the kiss wasn't a mistake? That I wanted to be with her? That I'm in love with her? Wow... that was just the first time that the thought was as real to me as it hadn't been before. Was it even being in love or was it just a crush? Like when I was a teenager, I was obsessed with some stars. I was snapped out of my thoughts when I realized I was being watched the whole time. I looked ahead and saw that Demi was looking at me through the rearview mirror the whole time. When she realized that I had noticed her, she smiled at me and looks down the road again. I wasn't paying attention, but Demi, Rose, and Auri seemed to have been talking the whole time and decided that we would go to a sushi shop. Demi seemed to know the owner well and we didn't need to book a table.