Drink it up | Kim Hongjoong

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I rolled over slowly opening my eyes, my body was still bare from the night before. Hongjoong and I came home and had more than a few rounds, it started in the shower which led to the counter and then the bed. We tried to sleep but every time one of us woke up we initiated another round.

I was sore nonetheless, I looked over and frowned as I noticed Hongjoong wasn't there. I slowly got out of bed heading to the bathroom, I took a quick shower before brushing my teeth and hair, I put a pair of black jeans on as well as a cute lilac purple sweater that gave me sweater paws. I made my way out of the bathroom and into the the bedroom. "Joong?" I called out as I grabbed my phone, I made my way through the house looking around. Hongjoong was no where to be seen. I quickly dialed his number and bit my lip.

Hj:
Hello?

Me:
Where are you?

Hj:
I left to get us breakfast, I'll be back soon, how are you feeling?

Me:
Sore but I'll manage, we're still going to that party tonight right?

Hj:
Yeah, it starts at 6

Me:
Okay, hurry back

Hj:
I will love you

Me:
I love you too, drive safe.

I slightly cringed at the fact he said "love you" instead of "I love you" but I brushed it off as I sighed and texted Mingi.

Me:
Hey I need a favor

Min to the gi:
Sure what's up

Me:
I want you to get everyone black out drunk and high tonight

Min to the gi:
Why? I mean it's not a problem but why?

Me:
It's hard to explain but I'll tell you later

Min to the gi:
Okay bet, you can count on me

Me:
Thanks Min <3

Min to the gi:
Of course <33

I felt so bad, if only he or the others knew my real reason for it. I would wait until they were all distracted and blacked before I left. I walked upstairs and grabbed some paper and a pen, I needed to at least give them an explanation. There was no telling if I'd see any of them again and I couldn't stand the fact of just disappearing and leaving them in the dark.

Dear my love

By the time you read this I'm sure you've figured everything out, I'm sure everyone has. I couldn't just leave without explaining why I left, my father planned the club incident. I don't know how he knew I was there but he did, he gave me a warning. I had already been thinking about it when I found out he was at the restaurant with us. The waiter was also the bartender at the club, I met him and told him I'd go willingly. I know how stupid it sounds, but I couldn't stand the thought of losing any of you, you all mean to much to me. Hongjoong, Joong, Joongie, my love, I love you so incredibly much. You were my first and only love, that is how I plan to keep it the rest of my life, no matter how long or short that is. You made me feel something different, you made butterflies in my stomach, you took care of me, you loved me, for me. If San hadn't introduced us I don't know how much longer I would have survived. Please never lose sight of who you are, you are such an important person, not just to me but to the boys as well. They look up to you whether you wanted that in the first place or not I don't know. I feel like I'm rambling but I also feel like I haven't written enough. You were there for me through some of the hardest times, yes we've had our ups and downs but had way more good than bad. I guess the best thing to say is, thank you.