Drink it up | Kim Hongjoong

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I felt my body shake softly, "Euna were here." I groaned and slowly opened my eyes, it looked like we were in the middle of no where. "Mm is this where you plan to kill me?" He was on my right with my door open as he smiled at me, "I'm still deciding between a bullet, arrow, or knife." I nodded, "Arrow. It's fast and quiet but you can also shoot from farther away." We laughed as I unhooked my seatbelt, "Arrow it is." I smiled and got out following behind him, my bow was laid out on one of the picnic tables already.

I stretched my arms behind my back and then above my head, Jongho looked at my stomach and blushed. "What is it?" He looked at me, "Nothing..memories." I giggled with a small blush, "You get flustered so easily." I grabbed the trigger and arm protector putting them on, after they were secured I grabbed my bow and took the arrow pouch out putting it around me. When I looked at the trees that's when I noticed the faded spray paint on the trees, "Someone must have recently painted them."

I nodded and took my position before I cracked my neck and placed the first arrow in its position. I pulled it back and aimed before letting the trigger go, it flew straight to the bullseye. I took the next one and walked in front of the next tree. I took my position and placed the arrow in its spot before pulling it back, aiming and firing the arrow. I continued this for the next three trees, I hit each bullseye. Jongho let out a loud whistle catching my attention, I smiled and placed my bow down, the pouch carried 5 at a time so it was out.

I sat on the picnic table as Jongho ran over to me, "That was amazing!" I smiled and massaged my shoulder, "Did you hurt yourself?" I shook my head, "I'm sore from how I slept last night." He placed his hands on my shoulder and started to rub them, he knew what he was doing because damn it felt good. A small moan came from my mouth as I leaned my head back, "Am I hurting you?"

He was about to pull away when I grabbed his hands, "No, don't stop that feels good." He smiled and put his hands back but this time on the sides of my neck, his thumbs ran over my cheeks. My lips parted slightly as I looked into his eyes, I could tell he was searching for something. I closed my eyes as his lips landed on mine, my back hit the table as he climbed on the table hovering over me.

I was trying my hardest to focus on him but memories of Hongjoong and I kept flashing in my mind. His messages were embedded in my brain, his hand went to my side as he pulled away kissing my neck. I opened my eyes breathing heavily as I looked up, another memory of me and Hongjoong outside under the tree hit me. Things were so good before that mission, "I can't lose her Jongho."

"Stop stop stop!" He pulled away and looked at me as I sat up, "Are you okay? Did I hurt you?" I shook my head tears in my eyes, "I can't..." He gave me a confused look making me feel even worse, "I'm sorry if I pushed you I didn't mean to-" I shook my head, "No it's not that...I can't get him out of my head Jongho...I still have feelings for him and that isn't fair to you.."

He sighed and sat next to me, "I know.." This time I was confused, "What do you mean?" He looked at me, "I know it's not fair for me but...the little bit I do get of you is amazing." He looked at me as he stood up standing in front of me, a tear rolled down my cheek as he cupped them. "I know you love him. And I'd still do everything the same even if I could change it, but why do you want to go back to that? All the fights you had..the jealousy...how is any of that worth it?"

I sniffled as I looked down, "Because those were just the bad times, we had so many good ones. All the times we spent eating together, joking around, the movies we watched, the memories we made...normal couples have fights. They have ups and downs." He sighed and pulled away, "You're right I'm sorry." I got up and hugged him tightly, "I'm sorry..I never should have started this..I'm only hurting you. I don't want to lose what we had or what we created. I just can't...be physical."