Just tell me (Phan AU)

Desperate for Attention

PHIL POV

I walked confidently down the hallway to my bedroom. The door was still open but Dan was no longer sitting on my bed where I had left him. Where is he? I stared into the empty bedroom. I walked into the room slowly. I noticed the camera was turned off, but still in the same position it had been in when we finished recording the video. I thought back to how Dan had basically said that we were made for each other.... Kind of. Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of my bedside locker. I'm not sure why, but I opened the drawer. Inside I found a picture of Dan and I at the first convention we ever did together. A sad smile formed on my face when I thought about telling him my secret. There were many possibilities of how he could react, but honestly I expected him to either leave, or tell me to leave. I inhaled and exhaled slowly, trying to calm myself. My breath was shaky. I felt the room spinning and clutched the beside locker for support. I shoved the picture back in the drawer and swiftly shut it. I couldn't tell Dan. I didn't want to lose him. Dan was my best friend and I wasn't willing to give him up because of my stupid feelings towards him. Maybe I could just tell him that I'm gay, and not about my feelings towards him. I mustered up all the confidence I had, which admittedly wasn't very much, and headed for his bedroom.

Empty. I sighed. Who knew this would be so hard? I haven't even started to tell him and it's already difficult. I looked at the creases in his duvet covers from where he had been sitting and my mind began to wander. I thought back to the number of times I had walked into his room to see Dan sitting in that position browsing through tumblr. I remembered the way he looked up from his mac when he heard me enter. The glowing screen made his eyes look even shinier than usual. I couldn't help but stare at him before He looked confused and I realised what I was doing. I'm surprised he hadn't noticed yet. He hadn't noticed the way he always leaves me breathless.

I was snapped back to reality all too soon due to Dan's booming laugh downstairs. Crap. I had forgotten that Chris and Pj were coming up to watch movies tonight. I sighed yet again and followed the beautiful sound of Dan's laugh. The closer I got to the living room, the louder the voices got. They were happily chatting away to each other. I stopped walking when I reached the door. I held my hand over the handle, not sure if I wanted to go inside. I knew Chris and Pj would be clueless as to what had happened, but Dan knew. Dan would give me the concerned look that I dreaded so much. Even if it was only for a few seconds, I didn't want it. I decided to get over myself and walk inside. When they saw me in the doorway, Chris and Pj stood up and were hugging me in a matter of seconds. I glanced over at Dan. Just as I had feared, he looked worried, but I was glad that his fear was being covered by a small smile.

The rest of the night basically consisted of Chris flirting with everyone, as usual, a lot of eating pizza and Marvel. I'm not complaining. I love spending time with my friends, but I just wanted to talk to Dan. Once again, our chat had been postponed. It was half eleven when Pj and Chris left. It was finally time to tell him.

PJ POV

(A/N: sorry but I'm feeling mean so I'm making you wait longer. Ehehehe)

As we walked out of Dan and Phil's apartment building I turned to Chris. "They are so in love." I chuckled. Chris smirked before replying, "Yeah they really are but I don't think they've quite realised yet." This made me smile. Whenever I saw Dan and Phil together I felt as though I was watching a cheesy romance film unfold before my eyes. They were clearly perfect for each other and had feelings that were deeper than just friendship but neither had mentioned it yet. "Maybe they have realised, but they haven't admitted it to themselves or the other person." I added. "Let's make a bet" Chris announced suddenly. "If Phil is the one that makes the first move, you owe me ten pounds. If it's Dan, you get the money." I thought about this for a second before deciding whether or not to except the bet. Phil wasn't shy, but he wasn't very vocal either. I thought he would be too nervous to tell Dan if he had any feelings. Dan, on the other hand, was a bit more outgoing, but I couldn't imagine him saying anything either. Christ stopped walking and held out his hand. I stopped beside him and gazed down at his extended hand. I decided to take my chances and shook His hand. Daniel Howell, you'd better get a move on.

PHIL POV

Dan went to close the door behind Chris and Pj. I stood in the living room, trying to regain my courage for the third time today. I was starting to get fed up since this talk kept getting postponed over and over. A few deep breaths later, Dan walked into my room. I was facing away from him, and couldn't bring myself to turn around. I felt as though my feet were glued to the ground in the position they were in "I thought they'd never leave." He signed. I laughed, but it sounded a lot more nervous than what I was expecting. "Phil what's wrong? Please don't say that there's nothing. It's obvious that you've been acting different all day end you're worrying me." Dan's voice sounded anxious. I had to tell him so that he could stop worrying. "Dan, I think it's time we had a talk." I practically whispered before turning and sitting on the edge of the couch.

Dan mimicked my actions with an uneasy look on him face. "This is unbelievably hard to say" I spoke softly. "I've been wanting to tell you for a while but I'm scared of how you're going to react. Dan, I'm gay. I've known for a long time and my parents know, but I've never told anyone else. I've been too afraid." Dan looked at me sympathetically before pulling me into a tight hug. I wasn't aware that I had been crying until he told me to stop. I loved being this close to Dan and was disappointed when he pulled away after a few seconds. He wiped away my tears before starting to speak to me. "Phil, why would you be afraid of my reaction? You are my best friend and something as small as this won't make me turn against you. I love you for you, and I'm so happy that you trusted me enough to tell me." I was overjoyed with Dan's response. I am so lucky to have a friend like hi- wait a second. is he getting closer to me? What is he doi- My thoughts were interrupted by a pair of soft lips connecting with my own. Was I dreaming?!

A/N: OMG guys! How the hell did I get 49 reads?! I wasn't even expecting to get one! Thank you all sooooo much:D anyway, what did you think of this chapter? It's bad when you start fangirling when reading your own story... Oh well. Not even joking, when I was writing this I felt nervous for Phil even though I knew what was going to happen... My heart was beating so fast and all I could think was "let's get these teen hearts beating faster faster". I hope somebody understood that reference.

Aaaaanway stay classy! *bows, throws glitter and tap dances away*