Take my hand. [Ben Bruce fan fiction]

Chapter Eighteen

Two weeks later...

(Ben POV)

I was cuddling up to Lucy, she was in tears. It was time for me to go back to America and tour with the boys again.

She had college still, and she wouldn't be allowed anytime off at all. I was going to miss her again.

"I can't do it without you." She cried into my shoulder.

I squeezed her closer towards me, I didn't want to leave her, I kissed her head.

"I love you. You'll be able to do it, trust me. Just believe in yourself. For me." I said to her.

She was talking all about the cutting, she had not been cutting since I had been there, I never wanted her to cut again, but with me gone. I wouldn't be able to comfort her as good as I could if I was with her all the time.

She was going to miss my presence around her. 

More and more people walked around us, we had been waiting in the airport for almost two hours now. I just didn't want to go at all.

"I love you Ben." Lucy cried.

I pulled back and looked right into her eyes, holding her chin up with my finger, I smiled at her. 

"I love you too." I said.

Then I kissed her soft lips again, I was definetly going to miss that, her beautiful blue eyes, looking at me, lighting up whenever I kissed her. But today they weren't lighting up at all, she was down, I was too. But I mean, she looked like she was going to pass out as soon as I left her side.

I sighed and stroked her hair. Then cuddled her again.

"I really don't want to go. Promise me you'll be safe." I said to her.

She nodded. But I felt ill, I didn't want to leave in case she really did something bad, like cut herself to the point where she'd be admitted to hospital, and possibly face some time in a mental home.

"All flights from America have arrived, if you're waiting for a passenger, please go to the correct set of doors, if you're waiting to board a flight to America, the wait is around one hour, as all flights need to be cleaned and checked. Thank-you." The intercom spoke across the airport.

I felt Lucy shaking in my arms now. I looked down, I saw more tears streaming down her face.

"Oh, come on now. Don't be sad, I'll still talk to you." I said to her, wiping the tears away.

"Yeah, but I won't be able to sleep with you holding me close to you. I won't be able to kiss you anymore." Lucy cried.

I kissed her over and over. I just wanted to make-up for all of the times she wouldn't be kissed whilst I was back in America. 

An hour later...

(Lucy POV)

I was now holding Ben's hand, well I say holding. I mean squeezing, I honestly didn't want him to go back to America, I was going to be all alone without him, on so many different levels. 

We were walking towards the gates, where we would be seperated from one another, again.

We saw the gates, they were in clear site. I closed my eyes and just let Ben lead me to them, I didn't want to look anymore. I wanted to turn around with Ben and just run, away for ever with him. 

We finally stopped, my heart was almost beating out of my chest. I gulped and opened my eyes, Ben had a tear rolling down his cheek.

We were at the gates, people quickly flooding in and out, getting on and off flights. I wasn't allowed to go any further with him.

"I love you so fucking much." Ben cried.

I smiled and started crying, pulling Ben into one final hug. "I love you too. Please don't be gone forever. I love you, I love you. I fucking love you!" 

I felt like I couldn't breathe, the only person keeping me alive lately was Ben, without him in my life, I would have ended it all by now. I'm so thankful for him being there, loving me back.

We pulled back as an announcement came over the speakers. "Please may all passengers heading to California, Unitied States, please board the flight, as it will be leaving shortly." 

I sighed, I looked right into Ben's eyes. "Don't be sad baby." He whispered to me.

I wiped his tears away and he wiped mine away, then we kissed one more time. I tried to kiss him for longer, but he was now being ushered through the gates by security, as the flight was taking off in about ten minutes time.

I started, just wanting to die right there, this was even worse than when I had to say goodbye to him before. Back then we wasn't dating, but now we were, we had grown so close to one another, I never wanted him to leave my side.

I just started crying, Ben turned and frowned at me, he blew as kiss and I pretended to catch it  and put it against my beating chest. He smiled and winked, then he went off into the distance.

I just stood there for a while, feeling like someone had ripped my heart out, split it in half and gave me half back. My other side had been taken with Ben.

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Author Note:

Hey, so here's your update, sorry for not being able to update yesterday, I had a late night on Saturday, so I ended up waking up at 1PM. Then I had to do homework and go to my nan's house for dinner quite early. Then by the time I got back home, it was really late and I couldn't be bothered to write a chapter.

Cheers for reading. Tomorrow I MIGHT update, I've heard that we have a lot of Maths work that we are being given tomorrow to hand in by Thursday, so I might do it tomorrow instead.

Anyway thanks everyone again. Let me know what you think.

ALSO: This story is about to start getting very dramatical. ;)

- Laura Worsnop