A Distant Memory

Chapter 22 - Girls night

Anderson's offer reminded me that I haven't gone partying in a long while, and when I mentioned the topic to my girl friends, they basically forced me to go partying with them.

Something about me? I've always loved to party.

I chose my shortest and tightest black dress. Did I look like a slut? abso-fucking-lutly. Did I care? not in the slightest.

"My dad's gonna be over in like two minutes" I told Amelia, Kiara and Maria. "Okay"

I had already put Rose to bed, it had just been a few days since her birthday and she could not believe that she was five already. I couldn't either.

I raised that sweet little angel, my sweet little angel all by myself. I put my sweat and tears just to make sure that she always had enough, just to make sure that she was always happy, just to make sure that she knew that she was loved, just to make sure that she never suffered. My life is for her, and I would never, ever change it.

I made her, I had her in me for nine months and I gave birth to her all by myself. I saw her take her first steps, I went to parent conferences and went to the daddy-daughter school dances dressed up as a man, I wanted her to know that I was there for her unconditionally, and that I would always be. However, sometimes I feel like I'm simply not enough.

I'm not her father, but I'm be the best mom she could get. Or at least I tell myself that, after all I've done, after all I've given up for her and after all I put myself through just to see her smile, just to hear her laugh, I simply have to be... right?

I shook myself out of the negative thoughts when I heard the door bell ringing, my dad had unlimited access to my apartment, I opened the door and there he was. The man that raised me, the man that loved me unconditionally.

"Hi dad" I hugged him tight, he hugged me back. "Hi cupcake" he spoke softly.

"I already put Rosie to bed" I sighed as I pulled away, my dad stared me up and down with complete and utter adoration, "what?" I chuckled nervously. "You're beautiful. The best daughter I could ever ask for. I'm so proud of you, cupcake" I smiled at him, he truly was the best dad that I could ever get.

"Go, you deserve a night out" he moved aside so I could walk out, "let me just call the girls"

The girls were sitting on the couch and heard everything, there were no walls separating the living room from the main door, so they were just gathering all their stuff.

"We're ready" the girls were basically next to me. My dad walked in.

"Bye dad, love you" I waved at him and he waved back, we walked out and I locked the door behind me, I was so excited for what the night had to bring.

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As soon as the bouncer saw us laughing and walking in with our tiny, tight dresses, he let us in with a kind smile. How I love being a woman.

"Let's go get a few shots and then lets dance, yeah?" I offered, Maria chuckled, "you said it girl"

I had two shots of vodka and went to dance, the girls were talking with a man who was buying them drinks and stayed behind. I danced like crazy, shook my hips and just let myself get carried away by the music. I felt eyes piercing through me, I was used to it, so I didn't pay much attention to that.

I was pulled out of the dance floor by the strong grip of a man, when I turned around to slap him, I realized that it was Anderson.

That didn't stop me from slapping him, I didn't hold back either.