Him & I - The Two Of Us

Blame Me - Chapter 23

It's been some days since Taehyung oppa and I talked.

He has been coming home drunk ever since that day. He would come home drunk and tired and then wouldn't eat dinner.

He does have breakfast with me. But unlike before, I don't have the courage to talk to him.

For some reasons I feel like he's distant, which breaks my confident everytime I try to talk to him. Each time I call his name, he would give me his attention, but he never looks at me.

But do i blame him? No.

We have been fighting regularly since the first time I bursted out on him.

Now you may think he fights with me. It's not like that. It's me who argues. For some unknown reasons, I have been feeling more angry or more sensitive about my feelings ?

He doesn't talk to me anymore because I always end up saying something to him.

I know it's wrong. And I don't know why I'm doing this.

I never even had the guts to ask him for forgiveness.

He's slowly getting tired of me. I know it. I can see it in his eyes everytime he comes home. I can hear it in his silence when he sits quietly or ignore my presence because I make him feel like he's a bother to me.

Why am I being like this?

Why am I killing what I was trying so hard to help survive.

Why am I ruining everything him and I has?

I'm draining him and his energy. I'm draining his and mine hopes.
I'm burning the small flower that was blooming between us.

Why am I doing this?

(Author POV)

"Why don't you ever try to understand that I'm suffering too?!" Y/n yelled at Taehyung making him to close his eyes as he breathed out.

"Listen, y/n you don--"

"I don't want to listen to anything you have to say!! I'm so tired of this behavior of yours! It's so hard to bear this! why can't you just stop being like this?" she cried out making Taehyung to stand there looking at her.

He could not go and comfort her. She pushes him away.

It's not like he didn't try, he has done this a lot of times now. But the end always remain the same.

She pushes him away like she never even wants to see his face. As if she's disgusted by his mere touch.

"You're hurting me!" She screamed out, clutching on her chest as she sobbed out loudly, "You're hurting me so much!!"

"I feel so hurt even when I look at your face. Why are you doing this to me?!"

She gulped down the lump in her throat before getting up from the floor, she look at him " I don't want to see you. Please go away!" She cried again.

He was hurt too.

Why couldn't she see it?

'Am I that emotionless to you? That you can't even see how my heart bleeds with every single tear that leaves your eye, especially because of me' He looked at her face.

"Get out!" She yelled out again but this time, he walked out of the room without saying anything further more.

Without thinking twice, Taehyung took his car keys and drove off to somewhere else.