Him & I - The Two Of Us

A Break - Chapter 57

I could feel my heart break as he got up from the bed making me to bite my lip.

I couldn't even feel the anger in myself anymore.

I was just disappointed, upset, ashamed and heartbroken. My husband doesn't care about me.

Why not?

Am I not good enough for him? Is there something im lacking? Have I not been good enough to him?

But I was startled as I felt a pair of lips on my forehead and he sat infront of me again.

"Its okay. Let it out. You can complain, i'll listen." He speak, wiping off my tears with the handerchief he didn't have in his hand before, "You want a hug?" He speak, looking awkward.

"No! You had another woman in his arms not a hour before" I glare at him but he only wipe off my tears.

"I know. But I'm yours only. I can only give her some comfort but to you, I'll give my self away. You have the whole of me. Don't be afraid of any woman winning my heart because that's just not possible. Im only yours, whether you accept it or not. It's not my own choice anymore." He speak handing the handerchief to me as I sniffle and wipe off my tears.

"I hate liars, you know?" I tell him.

"But I'm not lying. I can't really lie. Especially not to you and eomma appa. I take my time to speak things but I don't lie." He tell me making me to hold my head as I refused to look at him.

"Y/n. Please. Im willing to tell you, can you listen to me?" He speak. I watched as he slightly pushed his hand toward mine but before he could hold my hand, I pulled back.

"She isn't happy. You know the man. He hasn't left her alone. He's bothering her, blackmailing her over her personal details. She's just stressed out. So she cried today. In my arms. There was nothing else. She doesn't have any family She can ask for help from. Living alone in a different country with no one to help you isn't easy. I've been bullied during my student life so I know."

For some reasons, I couldn't control the tears leaving my eyes. So I only sat there, listening to him.

"The kids used to bother me a lot. And I didnt have eomma appa to help me with life. But her situation isn't as simple as hers. She helped me cope up with things as kids. She doesn't have anyone here. She has friends but I'm the only one she knows for a long time so she is closer to me. She knows you don't like it but you should understand, she only cried because it was too hard."

"She only told me about the whole matter today, I was unaware of everything. She doesn't mean to come between us. She's my friend but you're my everything. Why do you have to be insecure? We are not wasting our time. I have faith in us. We aren't as weak as anyone think of us to be. It's alright as long as you accept me and I accept you. As long as you tell me about things you don't like about me. But there have to be things you like about me too. I like everything about you. If you like even one thing about me, we can work this out."

"Its not that I'm not willing to take any first step in our relationship, I don't want to be rejected by you. Because my affection and feelings have been rejected by people all the time. Im just afraid, I will look too clingy to you. I don't want you to go. You mean a lot to me. I want to spend my life with you"

"I'm too tired. I don't think I can do this anymore." He could probably hear the exhaustion in my voice.

"What do you mean?" And he asked me this.

"I just explained it all to you. You and I don't go well together. I had a good time with you. But I'm too tired of this. We can't keep ruining our mental health in this relationship. It is pointless. It's exhausting me. I don't want this anymore" I tell him, my tears still leaving my eyes but I didn't care anymore.