Him & I - The Two Of Us

Him & I - The two of us - Chapter 25

It's been some days since eomma appa visited. Of course he has been staying home since that day.

I have been trying to apologize to him but he usually brush me off as if I'm some dirt.

He just doesn't talk to me. Each time I wake up and see him, he looks worse than he did yesterday.

I'm trying to apologize. But things aren't going right.

He doesn't sleep in the same bedroom as mine. He didnt move into some other. It's something that doesn't happen between husband & wife.

But he just makes an excuse of work and sleeps in his office room.

And in the day time, he is barely home.

He is indulging himself into work so much that it is hurting him. I know it is.

But today is Sunday and he is home. Though not very surprisingly he is in his office room.

But this is my chance. To clear things out with him. I have to apologize to him and make things right.

And so right now, I'm standing in front of his office room, breathing in and out deeply before I actually knock on the door so I know im not disturbing him.

I didn't know if he would reply or not, but I still gathered some courage and knocked on the door.

There was no response for some seconds but eventually I heard his heavy voice letting out a 'come inside'

Upon entering inside, my eyes fell on him. He was just sitting on the chair with bunch of papers in front of him.

"O-oppa" I call as he hummed, not giving me any look.

But I knew he was really busy.

"I-i wanted to talk about something..." I mentally prepare myself to speak as I repeat the things I wanted to say to him in my mind.

"Yes?" He speak as a heavy sigh left his mouth as he moved pages in the file, kept aside at the edge of his office table.

"I w-wante-d..." and I suddenly don't know what to say.

He doesn't seem interested in listening to me. He doesn't want to look at me. He should have looked at me when I said I wanted to talk.

He doesn't want me. He probably won't care about the apology as I ruined it already.

"You wanted what?" He speak, eyes still glued to the papers that he found way much more interested than what his wife-- oops he never wanted me as his wife in the first place.

Of course he didn't. Dumb shit. Why do you always forget that? Do you think he care if you push him away or apologize for it.

He clearly doesn't care about anything related to you. He would be hurt if you mattered shit to him. He is just stressed about his work and there's nothing relating to you that he worries about.

"i-i want your attention." the words roll off my tongue before I could stop them.

But you won't give any attention to me. Because you hate me, my presence, my relation with you and everything that's related to me. Don't you?

"ok" I hear him say as I blink my eyes. He's looking up at me.

Ok? What does he mean by that.

He doesn't blink as he wait for me to finish. But I messed up.

The speech I mentally prepared was for when I thought he was hurt because he doesn't hate me.

Now I'm realizing, he can hate me too. What do I say now?

"you have my attention now, so tell me what is it that you wanted?" he speak soundly as if his words were laced in ice.

I'm just going to apologize. That's it. Now or never!

"i-im sorry" I breathed out, fisting my palm as I saw his emotionless eyes remain same.

"For?" He question me before looking back into the papers.

"I misbehaved with you so much the past days... And I di--"

"That doesn't matter so it's okay you don't have to apologize" He look at me, turning the pages more as I look at him, biting my inner cheek.

Of course it doesn't matter. It would matter only if he cared, dumb y/n.

"Was that all?" He dismiss me as a gulp down the lump forming up in my throat.

"Yeah, I'll leave now. I'm sorry for taking too much of your time" I mumble before bowing and turning around to leave.

I heard a heavy sigh leaving his mouth before I closed the door behind and walked to our room.

Well it went smooth.

Except that I feel like crying now.

I shouldn't be surprised it's been six months we have been married and I have spent a whole year observing him so of course his response should have been expected.

But my dumb ass choose to believe what I want to believe.

I'm very stupid for thinking there was finally something like, a beautiful red rose blooming between him & I.

But we're still walking the path of the thorns.

I'm afraid by the time we are near the beautiful flower,

It will wither.

And there will be no us.

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THE CHAPTER IS NOT EDITED.

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I personally like this chapter a lot.

I hope you enjoyed as well ❤