Him & I - The Two Of Us

Apologies - Chapter 44

It's been three days. Three days since we had fight.

And I thought that he'll realize his mistake soon and apologize. But now I see it.

I have ruined it for us.

He hasn't talked to me since that day. Doesn't even sleep with me. When the first day I woke up in the morning, I was worried as I didn't see him anywhere in the room.

I almost thought he left home once again.

But then I saw him sleeping on the couch in our living room. And when I woke up him, he got up and walked away quiet.

He eats breakfast, leaves for work, come back home, eat dinner and then spend the whole time in our living room.

I tried having a conversation or at least, tried to get a good reply from him.

But he has been giving nothing. I miss sleeping next to him.

He enters our bedroom, sit there to work but leave the room as soon as I step in.

Does he hate me that much now?

I'm not sure how I can make it up to him. I regret it. I regret not giving her a chance. He's upset with me now.

Is he really that close with her though? That he will be upset with me for her?

Or maybe no. Maybe it's just me who went too far. He has been nice with me the past few days until I brought up our past. Maybe I shouldn't have done that.

But I couldn't help it.

I hated the fact that my husband has a female friend who he lets cling onto him. It's different with me, Im open with the guys because I have been with them since I was a kid.

But his friend have not been friends with him since they were kids. He was a teenager. She was a teenager. What if she likes him?

I like Taehyung. I like the feelings I feel when I'm with him. Maybe we have lots of downs in our relationship but when we have our ups I feel ecstatic.

Somewhere in between our fights and hurdles of our marriage, I have gotten used to finding my home in him. And I can't lose him. I don't want to lose him to anyone.

I'm just scared. Scared that what if he suddenly finds her attractive? What if he suddenly realizes that he likes her?

There has been times where I have felt that he has feelings for me. There are those days when I feel nothing but love and warmth in his embrace. There are those moments when my heart flutters because of the way he looks at me.

I have never been in this situation before so I don't want to mistake these feelings as love. I don't want to give myself fake hopes that he loves me.

But sometimes I can't help but to notice the way his eyes shines when he look at me, but his eyes remain almost empty when he looks at others.

Maybe I'm stupid, but I have never seen that kind of shine in his eyes. Not even when he looks at his friends, or even his parents.

Sometimes I feel like he likes me when he comes back home and the first thing he does is taking me in arms and give me kisses.

But what if I mistake it all?

(On the phone)

Mrs. Kim :-
Hello, sweetie.

Y/n :-
Hi, eomma.
How are you?

Mrs. Kim :-
I'm alright, how are
you and Taehyung?