Him & I - The Two Of Us

Bloom And Gloom (16+) - Chapter 40

I furrow my eyebrows before placing my hand on my mouth, 'shit'

I feel like I'm gonna throw up.

"you okay?" I look up at Taehyung as I nod a little and drink up the water.

But I quickly ran to the washroom of my room as I feel like I'm gonna throw up.

What is wrong with me now?!

"Y/n, are you okay?" I breathe heavily as I look back to see my mother, rubbing my back.

"I don't want to eat" I tell her as she sigh.

"Okay I'll pack the food for you to take home" she sigh as I nod and look away from her.

"I wanna stay the night here." I tell her as she sigh.

"What if Taehyung has work? Won't he be disappointed with you?" She looks at me.

Why is she so discouraging?

She's so motivated to break us apart.

"Eomma please. Stop it. I'll talk to Taehyung myself. He's understanding toward me" I speak but she scoff.

"Understanding? Sure. Don't come to me when you realize you have done it all wrong" I hear her as she walked out of the room.

Ugh. She's so mean.

She just loves it when I'm unhappy. I wanted to celebrate my birthday happily with my husband and my family.

But my mother has to ruin it for me.

She's really the villain in my life.

A small sob left my mouth as I head toward the bed and lay down there.

I know it's stupid of me. But he didn't even come to check up on me. I felt sick and he didn't even bother to ask me if I was alright.

Is eomma right?

She's been married for years. She knows more than me.

Taehyung's family always appeared happy. But I have lived in my house and seen what marriage is like.

Is it really not what I'm hoping him and I can have?

Maybe she is right. Maybe he doesn't really want me because I'm fat now. I can see my body gaining weight everytime I stand in front of the mirror.

Maybe I am not attractive anymore.

His friend is more slim. What if she appears more attractive to him ?

He wouldn't do this to me. He... He isn't the kind of man who cares about such things right?

I have marks on my body. What if he hates me more because of them though? What if he likes girls who has flawless bodies.

No. I-i will try to get rid of the marks. He wouldn't find me unattractive then.

Maybe I should lose more weight and look prettier for him. I should take care more of my skin and my beauty. Maybe this is why he doesn't open up to me. Because I don't appear beautiful and attractive enough to him.

He will like me if I become like those kind girls that he likes.

Maybe then our marriage would work out right? Maybe then I wouldn't disappoint him. Maybe then he will want me like I want him.

I flinch hard as my thoughts shake. I shut my eyes closely as the door of my room open with a creak.

His slow yet steady footsteps was sound as he locked the door of the room.