Him & I - The Two Of Us

Finally Happy? - Chapter 28

I opened my eyes finally after struggling so much.

My headache wasn't exactly fully gone but it was better.

I pull my head up as I realize I had my head on oppa's chest.

But to my surprise, he was awake. Looking at a particular place on the ceiling. But soon he look at me as he noticed I was awake.

"Did you sleep well?" he ask me, placing his hand, which was originally on my waist, on my back as he soothingly ran it up and down. Trying to make me comfortable I guess...

"I did" I speak, I wasn't sure if I should pull back from him as even our legs were tangled, but it felt too good that I just didn't want to pull back...

"t-thank you though... I hope I wasn't too much of burden..." I speak faintly. For some reasons, I didn't have much energy.

"you're welcome." he tells me making me nod as I lay down once again, putting my head on his chest.

I hate how one word nicely said by him can make me forget everything. I shouldn't be this clingy but I can't help it.

I just want to hug him and sleep more. But it's already been too many times we slept on unresolved arguments.

"you said you wanted to talk to me about something" He speaks, making me smile. He remembers.

I nod my head at him as I distance myself from him a little so I could easily look at him.

"Oppa... Look, i-i don't know what you think of me right now... Wait no... That sounds wrong. I mean like I don't know if you hate me or something because I have been just bad, so bad to you the past few days..."

"I know how much you hate it when I'm not on my best behaviour around you..."

"But despite that, I always want you to be comfortable around me. I want you to be yourself."

"Let me finish" I stop him, sitting up on the bed as he does the same and look at me attentively, ready to listen to whatever I have to say.

"Look, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. You and I can not deny that I have been a bit--" I stop myself when I see a scowl on his face.

I wasn't sure at first but then I understood it was because I referred to myself as bitch.

He hates it when I curse at him or myself. He hates it when I curse.

But I can't help it, honestly.

"I mean I have been behaving really badly. And I know that it's bad. I-I don't know how do I explain. Give me a m-minute." I breathe out.

I'm panicking. I don't know how do I say everything and I even forgot everything I had to say.

"calm down" He hold my hand making me sigh.

"We don't have the best relationship. We know this, you and I aren't on the best terms. I'm insecure and very, I'm very dumb as well. And even though I know you hate me, I stil--"

"Princess, I don't hate you. Do you hear me? I never hated you, nor can I ever hate you. Stop thinking it that way" He tells me very calmly.

"Im just....sorry okay? I continued behaving bad even though I know I was hurting you. You treat me so well, but Im still so inconsiderate and selfish when it comes to you and i--"

"It's okay. Stop crying" He wipe off the tears I didn't know that were already falling making me pout, "You're none of those things. I understand you, I know it was your frustration and not you."

"but I was so scared that you would leave me" I confess but he shook his head.

"I wouldn't. Tell me did I ever push you away when you were willing to talk? The only times I did was when you were frustrated, and I did that to not fight. I know it hurts you too, I just didn't want to make things worse than they already are"