Thorns And Roses

Chapter Twenty-five

The nightmares have become a dark cloud that hung over Theo like the plague. Black and dripping like a sickness that would kill him in the end. Sleep was a thing of the past, and so was his and Demi's sex life. It was like a curse, like another sickness. Anytime Theo tried to initiate things between him and Demi, he was always softly pushed away and patronized.

It was always the same "Not now pup, I'm tired" "Theo, I thought I told you to be a good boy" and "I just don't want to have sex right now. Maybe later." But later never came. It was driving Theo insane. Was Demi realizing what a mistake he made in mating Theo? Was that why he didn't want to have sex?

And when Theo would try to talk to Demi about the real reason for the freezing out, he was once again pushed away and treated with condescension. Like he was just a little puppy that didn't know any better. Or like he should know why Demi was acting like that.

He lay wide awake as Demi slept soundly beside him. The presence of his Omega helped with the nightmares considerably, but it didn't stop them all together. His thoughts were horny and dirty as he didn't want to think about what was going on in his life.

Maybe Demi didn't want to bottom anymore. Would Theo be up for that, though? He didn't know how he felt about that. Theo thought back on it and jerked to a stop when a fleeting thought passed by. It was Demi's first heat and when Theo looked down at the Omega's cock he remembered how red his face became as he thought of what it would feel like inside of him.

Demi was uncharacteristically big for an Omega, Theo knew that. But it wasn't something he ever actually thought about for too long. It was something he never saw himself doing. Until now.

Theo sat up a little and stared down at Demi. He reached over with gentle fingers, and pushed back a lock of white hair that caressed his pale skin. Eyelashes that were long and black casted shadows along his cheeks and with a feather-light touch Theo trailed along the seam of his jawline.

"Is that what you want, baby? You want to fuck me?" He was just airing out his thoughts, his eyes staring out ahead of him, locked on the vanity mirror that sat across from the bed.

"Are you offering, pup?" Theo let out a small squeak and jerked his fingers away from Demi's face. He glared at the smirk that curled up at the Omega's lips.

"I...No!" He didn't even sound convincing to his own ears. Theo backed away from him as Demi sat up. He could feel the flush across his cheeks. A streak of fear went through him but Theo was quick to remind himself that this was Demi. His sweet Omega would never hurt him.

"Is that so?" Nowhere else to go but to fall off the edge of the bed, Theo stopped moving back. He swallowed hard when Demi reached up and softly took his chin in his hand. His thumb grazed at his jaw as Demi stared at him with his glacier-blue eyes. A look Theo couldn't describe shooting through them.

"...yes." Again, still not sounding very assuring.

"The way you're talking doesn't even sound like you believe it yourself." Theo held in his moan as Demi's hand left his chin to gently grip his throat. The same feeling he had a few days ago in the bathtub when Demi tipped his head back to kiss Theo filled his stomach once again. A heat like none he's ever felt before consumed all his thoughts and feelings.

"Is that what you want, Theo? For me to bend you over the bed and have my filthy way with you?" The groan of desire Theo was trying so hard to contain, lost all control as Demi purred at him.

"Well, I can't." And just like that, Demi dropped him into the deep end of forbidden want and need. The grip around his throat vanished and it left Theo hungrily gasping for air. He was turned on, a red flush across his face dipping into the collar of his shirt to cover his chest.

Theo whimpered at the loss of touch and grappled for any type of purchase to ground himself with. His hands white knuckling the blankets around him as he set his jaw in irritation.

"Why won't you have sex with me? I don't care who's on top, I just need to know why." Demi met Theo's eyes and a glare covered his face. He didn't care how upset Demi was with him, he needed to know the truth. Before his dark thoughts ate him alive.

"Because Theo, I feel like I'm taking advantage of you. You're in a very fragile headspace right now and I'm worried that if we have sex it'll only make it worse. Me fucking you will definitely have some negative consequences." Theo didn't understand. Yes, what happened to him as a child was awful but that didn't mean that it would affect him now. Right?

"But I'm fine-"

"You can say that when you get through one night without having a nightmare. Then we'll talk about our sex life." He bit at his bottom lip as he felt his jaw twitch in anger and frustration.

"We don't have a sex life. You've been avoiding me like I have the fucking plague. Always smirking at me. Patronizing me like I'm stupid." And he was tired of it. He didn't want to be treated like that.

"I'm only looking out for you Theo. Don't you understand that? I feel like if we have sex after what happened a few days ago, you won't be able to handle it. Jesus fuck, I think you need therapy." Demi sounded tired and fed up with Theo's shit. It hurt a little.

"You regret it don't you?" Demi who had been looking down at his hands that lay in his lap looked up at Theo. The Alpha angrily wiped at his eyes before the tears could form. He would not cry. Not now at least.

"What are you saying, Theodore?" Not pup and definitely not Theo. He was back to being called Theodore like he was in trouble.

"I know I'm fucked up and I have a lot of problems but I thought that we would get a few more months together before you realized the mistake you made in mating me." Theo still didn't cry, just scrubbing at his cheeks to ward off the impending tears.

"What? Theo, I don't regret mating you. I was just saying that I think you need therapy. That it could help."

"I understand that and I'm willing to get help but what about right now? I just practically offered myself up to you on a silver platter and you tell me I need therapy. What an ego boost. Thanks for that, made me feel really good." Theo turned his face away when Demi tried to reach for him again. The Omega dropped his hand and then attempted to catch Theo's eyes. He refused to look at him.

"Theo, look at me. Look at me, pup." Theo picked his head up and glared at Demi as hard as he possibly could. He allowed the Omega to cup his cheek and Theo being the love-sick Alpha he was leaned into it.

"Listen to me when I tell you, Theo, that I love you. I don't regret mating you and yes I do want to have sex with you but right now isn't a good time. I'm not saying we can't do other things that you are comfortable with doing, but I think sex just isn't an option as of yet. Do you understand?" Theo did, somewhat.

"I'm just worried about you Theo. I'm worried that if we have sex, you'll think I'm him and I don't want that. Just give it time and some therapy first. It's only been a few days since you learned what happened." Theo let out a grunt of disagreement as he nuzzled Demi's hand.

"You're nothing like him, Demi. You would never tie me down and drug me just so you could hurt me. Hell, you don't even remotely resemble him." Theo muttered into Demi's palm as he kissed his wrist. He licked at the skin that pulsed under Theo's lips and growled lowly in his chest. Putting his desires out there to see if Demi would push him away.

"We can do other things, Theo. Just no sex. Okay?" Theo reluctantly shook his head yes at him, and dropped Demi's wrist to climb on top of him sitting on his thighs as Demi laid back in the bed.

"Do you want to try something else, pup?" Theo tilted his head at him, unsure of what Demi meant.

"I could play with you if you want. Start soft and slow to see if you would actually like to be on bottom. What do you say? I won't push you if you say-."

"Yes!" Theo flushed to the tips of his ears at the almost shouted word that came from his mouth. At the playful smirk and lifted eyebrows Demi was sporting, Theo cleared his throat before repeating himself a little more calmly.

"Yes. I would like that. Please." He added just for good measure.

"Okay. Now lay down on your back on the bed."