Warrior underestimated

funny learnings

The weirdest places I learned from and had an interest in Psychology and mental health before I found out I was mentally ill was from watching serial killer documentaries at in the 1990s and 2000s. I was very interested in Transformers what was going on in their mind and decided to see what was going on. So I also know I don't need picked up law books to read about law but I ended up finding some old Psychiatry books and learn about the brain. I was very interested in what was going on and I said someone is acting funny it's usually there's something wrong with them in the background meaning in their childhood something in their childhood is wrong if they are acting funny. But I didn't know I was only fourteen at the time I started learning more and more as the time going on that it was more than just serial killers that it was just about to motionless and emotional IQ and stuff like that so I decided to broaden my horizons and end up deciding to learn more about other things about society as well and make people go crazy. Unfortunately one of them is  ptsd, pgasd to me is just an emotional response that is very misunderstood no. I think it's not a serial killer maker or anything else it depends on how you create your life that didn't matter the most but it also matters if another traumatic event happens I've learned when I learned about these particular people iPhones I learned that they are very interesting and they teach us about how to be human in the first place had to be caring about other people instead of being hateful and evil and deviant. Said we should band together and get rid of the serial killers are still going to learn from them instead and learn and move forward from now that's what I believe there's always hold no matter what you learn in life if you can unlearn something you can very easily but if you can't that's unfortunate there are some people that cannot differentiate from right or wrong. Those people are falling during the serial killers. And those are the people that owe me in Fantasyland I find those are people with d i d dissociative identy disorder, I have heard of one that had 14 or 24 different personalities and then there was one person that had like 150. 150 personality done one human being has quite a modest but that person went through the same crap I went through only she wasn't as tough as I was I find it's how your brain operations thanks in the Howard deals with life that makes it or breaks it sometimes you end up with schizophrenia sometimes you end up with did sometimes you end up with just playing PTSD or depression it depends on how your brain handles things and how are your maid actually. There are some people with did that are not Psychopaths or anything of the like. But there are some people that look like they have nothing wrong with him I.e my aunt who has something different definitely wrong with them and are manipulative have no emotions have no nothing nothing to offer not even remorse or empathy those are the signs of a psychopath if you let least have d i d PTSD schizophrenia full psychosis or anything of that matter at least you can have some kind of emotion or remorse or empathy but I don't find it with Psychopaths or sociopaths they're not the kind that usually have that and that's what my aunt has that's how I learned from some serial killers through psychology and Psychiatry blocks because I was interested in what was going on and what was making them kick and making them act crazy in the first place actually crazy not mentally ill but crazy so I ended up learning more about serial killers and then I said if you want last year okay with you treat people with more kindness and respect and might help. But then you got people like my Aunt who were completely normal raised not even abused and they are horrible people cure psychopathy I don't even know what she's doing. But that's beside the point I was able to detect a psychopath in her because I was able to watch search serial killer shows when I younger kid. That's when I found that the human emotion and The Human Condition was more important than what was going on in the nice guy as much as the nice guy was beautiful and stress-free and help you understand that your problems are a grain of sand in the beach or desert let's say what really matters is the cause most inside your head that's what's really delicate the cosmos inside your head it can drive you to kill I can drive you to hug and can drive you to do anyting you can or do not want to do it depends on how you are raised how you are wired and other stuff it's very strange and I enjoyed learning about the brain very much so Jesse emotional psychological part. That's why I'm going into mental health one day and why I'm deciding to work with people with trauma so they don't have to do stuff that they don't want to do like kill or hurt people I'm trying to break a stigma that has been annoying to begin with yes there are people like Ted Bundy out there who have been causing a lot of problems and they know they're causing problems and they've had bad experiences in life but then there's also the normal people have the exact same experiences in life and they do not hurt a fly so what is it with the cosmos in the head the mini Cosmos. That's as fascinating as a quasar is an emotion a behaviour of thought is just as interesting as a black hole or a star or the Big Dipper it depends on what you find these interesting if you find Art interesting that's your thing but I find the true cosmos of all this is very interesting that warning the night sky and the one in the head.  
It was warned that little obsession with forensic science I got me down this path because I was interested in the car's motion is the brain of a human being that does stupid stuff has been killing people so let's learn about more about the brain and how to take care of it properly and how to take care of a brain properly you raise it probably you treated with kindness and respect that's what I find. I don't think abuse Worth or carrying a homes are very good or broken homes are very good for the human brain in fact there the complete opposite if you are a horrible person that is horrible person meaning you're raised to be evil or wired to be evil. I believe there is hell but it's not in the form of a round or a universe or a Multiverse the same was having it depends on the person you talked to shake hands with the devil shake hands with God is depends on who you are talking to in the first place.