Poems?Short Writings?

The end. (Read this at your own risk)

The thought of you angers me.
From the hours to day you'd take to text me back
The time you seem to have to hangout with other people but not me
You deleted our pictures
Stop talking to me
And so much more .
Did you do it on purpose? I wouldn't be surprised if you did but even if you didn't , it still hurts the same.

These are the reasons why I'm starting to give up
I promised you it wouldn't be the same
And it wasn't
Your the one who stopped
Your the one who didn't want it to be like other times , your the one who was scared we'd drift apart
And unfortunately thats whats happening.
Because you stopped.
You chose to stop talking to me
You chose to make things none of my business
Those words hurt me. I hope you know that. I wanted to make everything my business, to make you my business but you decided to not say anything.
You chose to erase me from your life.

Which makes me so sad and angry

I told you I cared for you without any hesitation, but for you , it was like your pride or dignity would be ruined for admitting the feeling you had for me.

I never wanted this , your the one making all the decisions. But maybe those decisions are what's best for you... and I'm glad your trying to grow but I needed you to know how I'm feeling so I can learn to move on just like you.

I swear I've felt so angry for so long
With the things you say , with the things you do

You view me as the bad guy , seriously , don't you see what your doing , or are you justifying your actions with a lame excuse.

Ugh but I'm angry at myself too
For letting myself hold such a grudge against you
To hold a grudge against someone so dear to me!
Also for feeling bad for myself when I should be looking in a mirror too
I'm no better than you.

Im someone who can't keep there feelings to them selves as you may have noticed. I needed to tell you how angry I am at you. I hope you can hear me yelling through the screen
Can you feel these words in your heart because It'll be the last time I spent it all on you, on this whole messy situation I can't seem to get over no matter how hard I try.
I can't come to terms with how your getting over it so easily. I'm still hung up on this whole thing, maybe because we haven't truly talked about it, but even so, I don't wanna talk to you because I know you don't wanna talk to me.

So why keep trying , why want to talk to you , why keep feeing the way I do when all I get is nothing , I haven't forgotten everything you've done for me , everything we've been through but what your showing me is discouraging me from the possibility of us. So I'll get that idea out of my head. I'll listen to you for the last time and stop wanting to know everything , like you said it's none of my business.

I kept your important dates on my calendar, I kept our pictures , your pictures , I've kept everything. I don't get it. I don't get you. How you can do everything with such ease but even so I'm rooting for you in the backgrounds.
You really had me believing you didn't want it to be the same like other times. But clearly you don't care if we just disappear from each others lives.

I look for you in about everything but after these past few weeks , I'm done looking for someone who stopped looking for me.
Thank you for reading this.

The end.
(The most beautiful boy- The irrepressibles, Felsmann + Tiley)