I get upset when people don't know or don't understand how I feel,
but I have to remind myself that I don't let them in,
I don't let them understand.
And it's not their fault when they can't be there
for me because... I refuse to let them to.
I refuse to let them see the side of me that is most hideous, most tainted.
And yet on the day's they do see a glimpse.
My heart aches , at the reactions I get, the looks that say 'you hurt my feelings', how at time I don't even feel bad, but then others I feel so bad that I can't even live with myself.
I end up being the one that comforts them, I apologize for my actions while I'm still so angry and sad, In those moments I don't even wanna talk to them, but then again that's what makes me such a terrible person that I can't even look at myself.
My heart aches for the girl I am, for being who she is, and letting the people who say they know who she is, see something I'm ashamed of, something they'd never truly understand even if I said something.
But I refuse to let them see my suffering because then they would realize, that I am nothing that I've made myself out to be.
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Poems?Short Writings?
PoetrySome of my personal feeling and thoughts. I have no idea what to describe all of this as. But I like to write. I will be writing more just little by little about different things. (But it seems like I only seem to write about one thing...) Relatabl...
