I don't know anymore.
All these feelings.
That I can't EXPLAIN.
Happy ? Sad ? Jealousy? Loneliness?
Mad ? Love ?Guilt ? Fear? Want?
IDK
CLUELESS.
what... if.
Do I ...
Im not sure
why?
WHY?
I don't understand.
I don't
I Don't
I DON'T !
Im confused.
sAcriFicE
For who? You ? Me ? Family ? Friends ? Everyone!?
I don't know...
Love . Love...
No i refuse to talk .
Next, too confusing..
NEXT.
DON'T mess up.
You'll -
Stop - next,
Okay. Family , family is good , Good ? Yes GOOD.
Happy. No wait sad...
Stop- happy thoughts
I don't know... happy ? Happy thoughts?
Yes, no ? Sad thoughts...
mOrE MoRe mORe MOre moRe
these thought just keep swarming my head
More than one .. MORE
About different things
Different ? Maybe , no same . Same things .. over and over again...
Can't get it out .. why can't I get it OUT !
But I must smile ...
Smile, Smile! Bigger BIGGER.
Pretty, happy
Maybe...
No...
oh...
Ugly , must be ?!
MUST BE!
Stop- no more thinking...
No more !!!
No
but...
No
No
No
NO MORE ...
I-
I-
My brain hurts.
Trying to sort out my feelings, thoughts.
But there's more inside my head and heart...
Things I can't explain.
Things I can't understand.
Things I won't bring myself to understand.
Things I won't / don't want to explain to myself.
Why?
I don't know...
It's all confusing...
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Poems?Short Writings?
PoetrySome of my personal feeling and thoughts. I have no idea what to describe all of this as. But I like to write. I will be writing more just little by little about different things. (But it seems like I only seem to write about one thing...) Relatabl...
