Deviant Fate

14 - Murderous

-Arowin Velacara-

I needed her. I also needed her submission. She needed it as well. She just doesn't know it yet. All her life she's been alone. Doing everything on her own. If she only knew how much easier her life could be by giving up control. Letting me take those responsibilities on for her.

To be by my side, she needed to be properly behaved. No outbursts, complaints, or defiance. I haven't figured out if I should present her to my father. Maybe if he sees she's obedient and dutiful he won't pay attention to her. Although I know it's 100% likely that he will not accept her. I needed time to come up with a more efficient plan.

For now I needed to keep things between us a secret. If my father found out about her, he'll do whatever he can to eliminate her from my life. Or worse, if he found out her abilities, he'll use her. Torturing her until she breaks and bends to his will.

Ultimately I wanted what I wanted, but if I'm to please my father, I have to make a compromise.

-Gweneria Sol-

Waking up I found myself alone in my room. My door slightly ajar, I didn't move, not wanting Arowin to hear I'm awake. I don't understand why he can't just be normal. I get his normal is completely different from my normal, but he's making it out to be like I'm some delinquent who is in the wrong. He's the one that has stupid fucking rules.

I don't exactly know how to regulate my feelings. Unfortunately the damage has been done and I can't unfall for him. I felt a pull, a need. I wasn't prepared. I let my guard down. Next time, which I know there will be, I'll be prepared and I won't submit. At least not as easily... If he wants to start inflicting pain, so be it. Two can play at that game. If he hurts me, I'll find a way to hurt him ten times worse. I wanted to only feel the anger, but I couldn't help the sadness I felt. I thought - when you love someone you protect them, not hurt them...

Suddenly a voice stopped my thoughts from running rampant. It wasn't Arowin. Quietly sliding out of bed, I tip toed to my door. I heard a woman. Who the fuck was in my house? Listening further I heard Arowin speak, then the woman got louder. Clearly yelling at him.

"Are you stupid Arow! You can't do this! You're already putting her in danger by being here!" The woman yelled.

Danger? I'm in danger? I know he's the prince, but I didn't do anything? He forced himself into MY house.

"Lower your voice Zin!" He scolded.

So his sister really was coming here.

"Gwen is mine. I won't give her up. Whatever I have to do to satisfy Father I will do. Gwen is safe as long as she stays a secret." He spoke in hushed tones.

"It is impossible to keep her a secret. Father has people everywhere. If they see you with anyone who isn't Roena, they will kill without question. Especially someone like her." She seethed.

Roena? Who was she? I hated the part of me that felt jealous. I wanted to hate him, but I couldn't help the skip in my heart when Zinni mentioned Arowin being with another woman. I knew what we had was toxic and it probably should end, but could I forget the good memories we made? Though the bad memories outweighed the good, it was enough to make me fall for him.

Strong feelings churned in me. Both desire and detestation. I wanted to hate him. I think a part of me did, but when I thought about him, my heart fluttered. I hated that. I hated that I loved how he made me feel sometimes. He's a walking paradox.

"It will be possible. Gwen has gifts. No one will know who she is. The plan will work as long as Gwen is kept secret. Father will never know. Everyone gets what they want."

No one will know who I am... As long as I'm kept secret..? My heart pounded in my chest. What the fuck? Was this all a lie? Is he ashamed of me? Why do I have to be kept a secret? If I'm not fucking good enough for his pretentious fucking family why did he force me to let him in? What does he mean everyone gets what they want? He's forgetting ME! I don't want any of this. I won't be his whore and I won't be kept a secret.

I felt a fire burning in my heart. A burning rage and underneath, a broken feeling. Was this his plan all along? To claim me as his, make me feel for him, just to keep me on the side for his enjoyment? I'll just be kept hidden so as not to offend the royal fucks?

A hot tear burned my cheek as it slipped from my eye. I felt sad-mad. Sad that I knew this would never work out. He is to be King and I am no one in their eyes. I'm a Celestan orphan with no status. They would already hate me for being Celestan. I felt murderous. I felt my palms shake as the anger coursed through every fiber of my being.

Stumbling back against my desk, my hands hurriedly reached out to steady the tumbling flower pot. The once vibrant orange and yellow flowers wilted to black. Death kissing them farewell.

He thought I'd roll over and agree to all this? I am not his whore, and I won't cower from his callous father. Arowin was a coward. The only way he could feel tough was to walk on women and bend them to his will. A sad little boy who couldn't even stand up to his daddy. He wanted to keep me safe from his father. Has he forgotten I almost killed him? Anyone else would have died.

I'd have no issue killing his father. Everything bad in my life was because of his father. I'm not scared of some old bastard.