That's Christmas To Me

6. Home for the Holidays

I woke up to the sound of breathing. I didn't know where I was.

I turned over and saw Andy. We were in his living room, on his couch. His arms were around me.

Oh god did I fuck him while drunk?

"Andy?" I asked as I sat up. He groaned.

"No don't leave you're warm." He said.

"Did we fuck?" I asked.

"No. You got really drunk and I wasn't gonna let it happen." He said. "We ended up falling asleep...on the couch." He said while yawning. I sighed and laid back again. Andy wrapped his arm around my waist and relaxed his body.

He was a hell of a lot buffer now than he was way back when. His arms were more muscular and he was a lot bigger. I liked that.

I turned around and buried my body into his, resting my head in his chest. He chuckled and kissed my head.

"I've missed this." He whispered. "I literally haven't had physical touch in months."

"You haven't hooked up after divorcing Laurie?"

"No." He said as he rested his head on mine.

"I feel like I got it kinda good cause of Adam.."

"Yeah. No Laurie and I are civil we just...it was messy."

"What happened that snapped?"

"Uhmmm. I told her that I wished I hadn't cheated with her and my life would've been different and I could've had a better one if she hadn't helped me cheat and manipulated me." He whispered.

"Andy!"

"I know. I was rude and it shouldn't have been said." He said. I kissed his neck and sighed.

"I think I should go back home." I whispered.

"Yeah. Adams here too."

"Mhm." I whispered. I stayed in his presence for a bit before getting up.

"Okay. I'll see you later. Come over for dinner?" I asked.

"Yeah." He said as he got up. I put my sweatshirt on. As I did Andy came over and pulled me into a kiss, holding me from losing my balance.

I moaned softly. He smiled and backed away.

"Have fun doing a walk of shame." He said.

I groaned and turned around. "Yeah. Bye." I said.

Bye." He whispered.

As I put on my jacket Andy came over and pulled me into another kiss.

I chuckled, holding in my smile.

"Goodbye Andrew." I said as I backed away. He sighed.

"Bye."

•••

Adam stood with me in the kitchen. We liked cooking with each other a lot. We decided to make dinner together.

"So...how was your little overnight with Andy?"

"It was fine. We got drunk." I said as I cut up some carrots. Adam came over and took a carrot from my bowl.

"Just got drunk?"

"We didn't have sex." I said. He sighed.

"Rora you make me feel bad because you haven't gotten out there." He said.

"Don't feel bad." I said. "I'm getting out there. We're just taking it slow."

"You're only here till new years." He said. I looked up at him we he leaned against the sink.

"I know." I whispered.

"Aurora." He said. I rolled my eyes.

"I'm getting out there."

"Mhm." He said and kissed my cheek. Connor came running in, showing Adam a picture.

"Look daddy it's you, me, mommy, Andy, and Claudia!!"

I turned to look at him. He smiled and held it up.

"Wow honey. It's beautiful."

It was chicken scratches.

"Here. Let's label each one." Adam said as he grabbed a crayon.

As he did, Andy walked in.

"Hi." He said and took off his jacket. I smiled.

"Hey."

"Andy!" Connor said and went to show him the picture. Adam smiled and shrugged at me.

"Maybe you can sleep in a bed at his house instead of the couch." Adam whispered. We watched as Andy picked up Connor.

"Yeah that sounds nice."

"I don't wanna force you out of my ex-in laws house but..."

"Enough." I said. "I will."

"Atta girl" he said. Connor came over.

"Mom Andy asked if you wanna go to his house tonight?"

I felt my cheeks heat up. Adam nudged me and laughed.

"Yeah." I whispered.

Andy nodded and kissed my head. I smiled.

•••

Andy sat with me on his bed. My head was on his shoulder as we sat against the headboard. We had been watching a Christmas movie.

His hand was on my knee as a blanket was draped over me. This felt a little more like what we were long ago.

I nuzzled into him a little more, feeling cold.

Andy moved to wrap his arm around me. I rested my head on his chest and put my arm around him.

"Adam thinks we should hook up now." I said.

Andy chuckled. "Whatever you want love."

"I want to. I just..."

"Just what?"

I smiled to myself. I liked his warmth.

"I don't wanna catch feelings."

He laughed. "You admitted to loving me all these years but you don't wanna catch feelings?"

"Yes." I said quietly. He chuckled.

"I see."

I played with his fingers. I still had my wedding ring on. Then again so did Andy.

I moved to graze my finger over his.

"Why do you keep it on?" I asked.

"I could ask you the same thing sweetheart."

"Because I know that even if Adam and I aren't together...we still started a family and a life. And it keeps men away in bars."

"Me too. But not men...women. I mean men maybe."

I chuckled and kissed his hand. He leaned into me more.

"I think I wanna have sex." I said.

"You have to be one-hundred percent sure." He whispered.

I smiled. "I am."

He sighed and moved me onto my back, getting on top of me.

"Yes ma'am." He whispered.