Every Step

Chapter 8: The Polaris Lounge

(A/N: Well, here we are! THIS is the chapter where the feelz really begin so get ready and take your seat on the feelz train guys! :3 Oh and WAAAAAAAAH... *clears throat* Sorry I had to let that out... It took me ages to find the pic on the side... it's of Wade, Mark and Bob from their panel in the Polaris Lounge at PaxEast...-SharaRogers-Timea)

"So... This is it... The so well known Polaris Lounge..." Wade exclaims as I turn my head to look up.... I see curtains of different shades of blues thrown all across it, it's eye catching that's for sure, I look around us... Well, the chairs at least are the same shade, right? I smile to myself and look down just for a split second and find that I'm still holding Mark's hand. I turn crimson red as the smile on my face spreads even wider.

Mark is talking to someone from Polaris, apparently we only have a few minutes until the people will start to come in and take their places. We, me and Mark are slowly walking towards the stage at the front of the room. It's smaller than the one in the main hall but it's still big...

"So, you guys will start backstage and if the people want you to get on stage, which they probably will, you can come up from the side steps... Hey, are you alright, Timi?" Mark looks at me, concerned.

"Yeah..." I say. "Just a bit nervous... I mean look at all this..." I point out onto the rows and rows of empty chairs. By now we were in the middle of the stage, nearly blinded by the spotlights that are shining down onto us so brightly.

"There's going to be so many people in here and they will all be staring at us, at me on the stage... I have never really done anything like this before... Well... I have done a talent show in my school back when I was like 12 or so but there weren't as many people there as there will be here, in this room!"

"Nervous? Don't be! This is Jack's first time as well and Bob's... Me and Wade and everyone else will be here to help you out... You are not alone." He smiles at me and I cannot resist the urge to wrap my arms around him... I do so and he wraps his around me softly. I smile.

Our embrace lasts a lot longer than what I have expected and the even more surprising element of it is that even tough I can hear some footsteps coming in to the auditorium, just the sheer fact that they were in complete silence is enough, but Mark is not letting me break the embrace.

After about a good five minutes he does tough..... I feel like my heart breaks as he let's go of me. He steps back a bit from me and turns to face the audience, then proceeds to grab my hand. It didn't really catch me by surprise tough. I was ready. I know what he's doing..... He's showing to everyone out there that you are his... Mutters my inner Goddess triumphantly. Oh like I didn't figure! But I don't mind it....

A person runs on stage with a microphone in his hand and hands it to Mark.

"Hello, everybody!" Mark screams into the mic. The whole auditorium bursts out into applause and screams. Meanwhile another person runs on stage and hands me a mic as well. Oh, shit....... Well, this is going to go well! Shut up. Shut. Up. SHUT. UP!

I just smile. Trying no to show the internal battle that is going on inside me right now. Mark looks over to me and the whole room suddenly goes silent... I don't know if I'm imagining this or really everyone is silent. He smiles at me softly. I try to smile genuinely but can't manage it. He squeezes my hand softly... I smile. He smiles back again.

Meanwhile, I can't hear a single sound from the audience... From the back I hear a quiet 'Aw...' then the whole room bursts out 'Aw...'-ing.

I just chuckle and let my head hang down as I feel my cheeks heat up. I lift the mic to my lips... Do it... Go on! This is your chance to shine!

"Hey, guys!" And I can hear a round of applause as well. It's not as big as Mark's but what is the chance of having fans in from a 200,000 subscriber fan base when there's so many people here!

I smile and lift my head up. I can feel Mark squeezing my hand softly again as he continues to talk:

"As I can see some of you guys know Shara already! Well, for those of you who don't know her, this is Shara Rogers aka Shamea :3... I've been subscribed to her channel since she has hit 100,000 and I have mentioned her in some of my videos as well! It's just a shame we haven't done any collabs yet..."

"Well..." I'm more confident by now. "I think we can fix that!" I smile as people start to cheer again and then chant 'Marka' in unison.

I lean in closer to Mark. "Seems like our fans got a new ship to sail..." I mutter into his ear.

"Guys, guys! Shara is not the only special guest! Let me introduce the other guys as well! Come on up onto the stage, Bob, Wade and Jack!" Bob, Wade and Jack do as they're told and come up onto the stage and the audience bursts into applause once more. "So, we're all gonna take questions!"

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~After the panel because I can't, and frankly I can't be bothered to make up questions and then answers as well XD~~~~~~~~~~~~

So the panel was quite interesting... I've learned a lot about Mark and all the other guys that I have never known before... And because it was my first proper panel as well!

So now, we're sitting in a Subway just down the road, each of us enjoying a sub... Tanya and Jack are sharing one because they have found out that they both like the same fillings in the same type of bread. I'm sitting on the edge of the semi-circle shaped leather seat, Mark is sitting to my right, Tanya sits next to him, then comes Jack, Bob an, finally, Wade on the other edge.

"So... You guys had fun today?" Wade tries to start up the conversation. It seems like he's trying to target everyone but he seems to be focusing the question onto me and Mark more...

"Well, I think today was AWESOME! And simply the best day of my life because I got to meat you guys and so many other people as well! I also loved the panels! They were my first panels so I didn't really know what to expect but it was better than what I have expected that's for sure!" Jack exclaims then takes a bite of his Sub.

"What about you, Shara?" Wade targets the question at me and I just stare at him while I try to think through the things that have happened today... I suddenly feel a hand on my thigh.

I look over to Mark, he smiles. I smile.

"Well, today was probably THE best day of my life... I've spent my day with my favourite YouTubers, and I'm hoping to say that we have became friends, I'm living in AMERICA, and my best friend is here with me, and I think I have found love.... Heh... Like I didn't know I love him already..." I look over to Mark who is still gazing at my face and smiles as I look at him. "Heck... From the first video I've seen from you I knew you were special, but never in my wildest dreams would I have dared to dream about meeting you because I knew it would never happen..." By the end of it I have tears in my eyes.

Mark just sit there in silence. Staring back at me, the happy expression from his face disappeared. What an asshole! You've just confessed your love and he says nothing... What is wrong with me? Why isn't he saying anything... I just stand up quickly and rush out to the restrooms.

(A/N: Well, this is a lot longer chapter than the usual ones... I'll probably be bringing someone in, just to make things a little more... Interesting...)