As I wish {the second part of my autobiography}. ✔️

Nearly Deaf (my mom) - introduction

I remember in the seventh grade when I was 12 years old my father tried to teach me how to cook and drove me out of the house while there was an ice storm and I was walking across the damn town of Almont and back to my house again one day and my mother got really furious that I made it to my best friend Karen's place was my best friend at the time and she really yelled at me that day when she found out that I came back with Karen Bambi and Karen said that I was at her place hanging out and then was walking back and sheer ice.   The thing I remember was my father getting pissed off and I didn't how he looked Like a horse  and I asked him what the hell is wrong.   Add the time I didn't swear the only word that I can say there was anything close to a swearword was Halloween I said what the hell is wrong with you look like a horse.  He said there's a lot of things wrong.    My mother was going to go insane that day and she was going to go insane like really crazy that day she said after the Simpsons were going to have a chat I remember watching the Simpsons it wasn't my good episode of the Simpsons something that should've been a pretty much a foreboding omen right there that i was in deep shit.   I remember it was one of the earlier ones really crappy Simpson so it was really not funny and I didn't think I was laughing at very much. And then this is what happened and my right ear still rings to this day as if I'm deaf in that ear but I'm not because I gotta hear like a Bat. What happen was it he said upstairs now that's one thing she said I got upstairs and then she went for the jugular she was so fucking mad that day I've never seen her so hopping mad at me. She ended up Elena saying that was my legal name at the time saying Elena is trying to get back to the world even taking too much from it.   That's what I got you taking too much from the world you're taking too much from the community and you need to make a difference you need to give back somehow you need to find a way to give back and she was screaming and yelling she said I don't want to even see the Simpsons or anything funny on the TV because you're grounded. I remember my ear ringing as if I was listening to a Marilyn Manson concert next to a freaking speaker it was that bad he was that loud and that angry. You later I decided that I was going to act on those words.  That I better behave and give back to the world even if it means getting in shit. So I'm in that man something that I was gonna be important for me. I remember that year ago when she was when I was in grade 7 the same year and he lost the hearing in my right ear I watched The first X-Files series and the first X-Files movie and I can remember Dana Scully saying I join the FBI because I want wanted to make a difference and that's what boom right there was my goal in life. Even if the kids are gonna call me a Lotta bad names and they did.
I did everything in my power to avoid the bullying but the bullying continue and my friend that I spent the whole day that fateful day walking across the town to get and come to my house to hang out with that was my plan actually. What is actually going to be a racist bigot because it was after 911 and started calling me things like I am saying sand - n and other other horrible names and paki and oh there's a couple of other good bastard words that they named me.    Add the time after 911 I also remember having starting to develop symptoms of PTSD.  That was when I realize the war zone that I was there was also a terrorist country that also drove me do you want to be an FBI agent also the fact that my mother k daphin my right ear year out before. All came in together at once. And then as far as my singing is concerned I don't know how this happened she never told me to sing and I said I want to be girlfriend with both yours and my her yelling he was a good woman but she had a bit of a temper at times.
And every time I try to sing because I had throat and respiratory in fractions as a kid I was always sounding like a cat mean Waterboard Aurora horse getting water boarded some thing like that affect she said hey cat waterboarding why do you try to sing and I was always call and sing oh Canada or star-Spangled Banner one of the two either way I was trying to sing those but I sounded again like a A cat mean water boarded and I heard traffic was very horrible when I was younger kind of thing and I called the same author shit. I remember that I was always on the antibiotics for my respiratory and throat in fractions are is very swift to get strep throat or whatever can cause lung infections viruses and bacteria either way I could swing were the shit. It wasn't until I finally met someone who finally gave me the chance to actually sing in front of my mother on the phone Amanda Jordan who actually got me to sing bang bang my baby shot me down and I actually had a good voice. Then Covid struck and I ended up selling ride the cat being water boarded.    I was also trying to say well I still have to sing or rap or do something so I rap  for until I either was able to sing again or I got covet again but I still wrap I've had a second bout of cove still wrap gritty but I also sing again I'm able to see again because the body was able to fight off the covet a lot faster this time with the vaccines and with the actual second dose of Covid it was like it never even happened. And I was able to send it down.
As for the woman that nary definition of my right ear drum she died on July 20, 2022 her name is Debbie melanson! she was my mother not my birth mother my mother mother who actually had my back and I always had my best interest at heart and I was very shocked and I almost nearly died earlier from a heart attack when I sang bang bang with a decent voice. This was something that was beyond grief stricken and I'm still suffering from her loss to this time but I know that she's floating around in my room as we speak as a ghost she's my Casper but she can be a little bit of a bitch to the people that wrong me.   As all mothers should be whether they be dead or alive I don't believe in death.