Only thing keeping me alive

Chapter 12: In this snowy winter

I changed my mind and i will never change the last chapter but this chapter will now be the next week of the last chapter, im so sorry. Anywho to the chapter

It's been a week since I've last seen or heard from Mafuyu, she hasn't been using nightcord this past week, I miss her. I've just been staying my room too much these days since I really had nothing to do. (insert notification sound from discortd) A notification from nightcord? I hope it's Mafuyu...

Oh, it's Mizuki. What does they want? I read the text, it seemed like Mizuki wanted to hang out since Ena wasn't free nor was Mafuyu, so I just agreed with a reply of "Sure, where are we meeting?" Mizuki wanted to meet at the mall, well I didn't really go but it's best if I go out, I've only been going to go to the hospital this week.

I finally arrived to the mall, I just had to find the shop that Mizuki was telling me about how we would meet there, after a while I finally found it. It didn't take so long because I remembered some parts of this mall when I went with Ena, Mafuyu and Mizuki before. "Hey Kanade over here" I heard someone say, I look behind me to see Mizuki with some bags, which I suppose was from shopping a bit. "I came early so I bought some stuff, hope you don't mind" "I don't mind, we're here just for that right?" "Nope, just wanted to discuss about how Mafuyu hasn't been checking her nightcord" Oh, that's why Mizuki called me.

We go to a cafe for a drink and to discuss about Mafuyu, we ordered some hot drinks since it was freezing cold and sat down. Mizuki started speaking in concern "Has Mafuyu also been not replying to your message Kanade?" I wonder why she was doing it but I'm sure she's not ignoring us "Yes she has but I doubt she's ignoring us. Maybe she's busy?" "True, but what could she be busy about?" "Maybe celebrating with family?" I think her mother did something again but I didn't want to tell Mizuki to keep a secret between us.

"Ahh..." Mizuki groaned "I can't seem to find what Mafuyu would be doing" "It's probably something really important, we could ask her when she comes back to nightcord again" "Oh right, good idea. Well thanks for meeting me Kanade, see you soon!" Mizuki left me alone, I didn't mind being alone but they kind of just left me in front of the mall in this snowy winter. A lonely one, I should go to the hospital to feel less lonely.

I visit the hospital just for my dad, he was asleep "Hey dad.. Mafuyu has not been replying to me, but it's fine. Whatever she could be doing might be important. But I came to visit you to let you have company and also for me to have the same for you. It's been lonely as you've been in the hospital for a month, the only people who talk to me are Mafuyu, Ena and Mizuki. Oh wait, I wanted to sing you a song I made, I made it with my heart. I hope it is a beautiful song for you"

I sang to my father a song that was made with my heart and feelings, I know my talent is a curse but it makes my dad somewhat happy and makes Mafuyu feel alive apparently to her, I'll do anything for Mafuyu alive even if it was a curse.

After I finished the song, I left but before leaving the room I swore I saw my dad smile, although I might have just been imagining it, I was still happy. I finally left the hospital and went home.

When I arrived home, I decided to compose some songs to kill time. I enter my room, there are papers everywhere but it doesn't matter, I composed some songs and as I compose one of the songs a nightcord notification comes from my phone, I check who sent a message.

It was Mafuyu? I check on what Mafuyu messaged, it was an apology? I don't get why Mafuyu apologized but she did, I text Mafuyu that she didn't need to apologized and continued composing and fell asleep during so.

No dream, I usually get a dream with Mafuyu in it when I sleep, but not this time. I'm guessing it's because I haven't seen her in a while. This will be a lonely winter for me.

This is such a short chapter help, anyways next chapter is next month where they meet in school again. I wanted to say Kanade did do the same thing when her dad went to the hospital in the canon story but Mafuyu reassured her that the songs she makes, make her feel warm and alive which gave Kanade some motivation to make many songs for Mafuyu and her father.