An Escape From Reality (Original Music)

Beaten And Broken Song

I don't know what to do anymore,

What if I'm beaten and I'm broken,

Praying that nobody is up there keeping the score,

I'm waking up and wishing that I don't,

I'm not strong enough to leave my feelings out in the open,

Falling asleep at night praying that I won't,

What if I just laid there would I eventually drift away,

I don't want to ever feel this way again,

I pushed you away and told you I needed space,

But you crossed the line when you didn't go away,

How could you do what you did to me?

Oh all your shitty lies and the comments about suicide,

Do you just want me to lie there and say I'm okay,

I'm shaking on the floor bleeding screaming and crying,

I let you in but you broke me into a million pieces,

My anxiety is all over the place,

My lungs are constricting and I'm struggling to keep breathing,

My heart is beating like I just ran a race,

What if I stopped breathing, what would you do?

How could you treated me so badly?

I'll keep it dark and keep it quiet,

I don't want to stay up all night,

You said I'd be fine but the truth is I'm going through hell,

All I hear is your voice in my head,

I tried to be truthful and honest,

But I'm tired of playing games with myself,

Tired of pretending to be someone else,

I pretend that I'm happy and perfect when I'm not,

I'm staying up every night thinking about how I'll die,

The truth is I'm breaking down and going through hell,

How did you think that I would get through this well?

Your voice in my head,

Telling me lies,

Wishing I was dead,

Deaf to the sound of my cries,

I'm in agony and the truth is,

You don't give a fuck about me.

Probably don't give a fuck about me,

The truth is you don't give a fuck about me.

How did you think you could get away with this?

I am insecure and it's all your fault,

I ain't gonna let you close to me again,

I can't take it anymore,

I'm the only one you treated like this,

What are you saying when I'm not around?

Are you laughing about what you did,

How are you acting when I'm not around?

The truth is the pain im feeling Is crippling,

I want to stop breathing, stop thinking stop living,

I want it all to be over and this isn't normal!

I never wanted to grow up like this wishing for it to be over!

This is all your fault and I'll blame it all on you,

For once you can own up to it and take the blame,

You used to be there but now I know it was all an act,

I still see you when I go to sleep,

Standing over my dead body,

All these harmful thoughts are so persistent.

I don't wanna love anyone anymore,

Because all it does is cause more hurt pain and fear.

I loved you but now I don't.

Waking in the morning and wishing that I won't,

Praying that the next time I fall asleep I don't.