An Escape From Reality (Original Music)

Invisibility Song

I don't trust my own feelings,

Don't know the true meanings,

Behind them and what they mean,

I don't trust them I just wanted to be freed,

I don't know where I belong,

Don't know where to call home,

Who are my friends,

And who are my enemies.

I don't trust how I'm feeling,

I know in the end,

It'll just leave my head reeling,

I don't understand how I can feel this way,

Every day, Every single day,

I want to feel normal,

To feel happiness and hope and love,

I want to be loved.

Even though it always comes with, heartbreak,

I want to try again, fall in love someday,

See where this will lead me, in the long run,

Someday I will need to trust again,

Someday I will love again,

So I need to learn how to try right now.

It is getting harder for me to breathe,

I'm struggling to keep it all, under my sleeves,

Trying to hide away, from everyone,

And everything I love, trying so hard,

I want to be invisible, uh oh,

So nobody, nobody, can judge me,

I want invisibility,

I want to run away,

And never be found,

I want to be forgotten about,

So I could disappear and everyone wouldn't care,

They'd all still be happy and smiling everyday.

I forgot how lonely it felt having friends,

Yeah I'm not physically alone,

But this house don't feel like a home,

My friends just leave me in the dust,

I'm constantly in the dark,

Slowly but surely losing my spark,

Knowing that it will come,

In the end it's inevitable,

I'm falling apart,

Sooner than I'd like to start.

It would all be easier to be,

Invisible where nobody can see you,

And I could just be left to myself,

Not constantly pressured to talk,

About how I'm feeling when I just want to,

Be and feel alone, sometimes It helps,

To have, some time to yourself.

Where you can just sit alone,

And work through your trauma,

Even if every bone, in your body,

Tells you to run away,

Depression is difficult to manage,

I want to be alone,

Treated like a ghost.

Even though it never helps me,

I want to be left alone to myself,

So I have to work through it,

To gain some closure and move on,

And I can't do that being surrounded,

I can't do it if I feel grounded,

I have to break down and scream and shout.

Let my emotions flow,

Don't try to suppress them, no oh,

It don't matter,

What they say about me,

All that I care about,

Is how I see me,

And how my friends feel about me,

And that I know that they're there.

I'm succumbing to invisibility,

Letting myself sink down into the hole,

Of anxiety and instability,

I need to break down to heal,

Nothing is truly broken, no matter how you feel,

You can always fix your mistakes,

Let people in to fix your mentality.

Let them tell you you're loved,

Coz all it takes to heal are those three words,

I love you and I miss you and I need you.