An Escape From Reality (Original Music)

Lost Song

I know that I'm broken,

The problem is that I don't want to be,

It just comes and it goes,

I get lost on my own,

I love you but sometimes I'd rather not,

I would rather die than feel this pain, inside,

Why should I keep breathing,

I'm lost and everything kills me.

Tell me a secret and promise me you'll keep it,

Saying it out loud makes it real and I don't want it to be because I don't want to feel,

This hole in my heart is making it hard to keep up,

Oh god I thinking I'm falling apart,

I'm scared that its showing,

That I stopped hoping,

Why am I breaking,

Why am I hurting,

Oh yeah, I'm scared of the feelings.

I love you but sometimes, I think I'd rather cry,

My heart hurts too much to laugh,

I would rather feel alive than die,

To smile, to sing, to dance,

It all hurts too much to try,

So why shouldn't I just say goodbye,

It hurts to much to sing,

To try and enjoy anything,

I used to be so happy and so joyous,

But now depressions been victorious,

Why can't I feel normal things,

Why has the light been taken,

Why has the joy been sucked out of everything?

I'm trying my hardest but it's never good enough,

I'm trying to be my smartest and my kindest but it never works,

They always say to me "don't you cry, come to me and I'll make you smile"

But it never works and I always break down,

It hurts too much to laugh to smile and to dance about,

Now I know what they feel like now,

They feel broken unworthy and ashamed,

That their life has been overrun by pain.

I don't want my last words to be,

That of sadness hurt or anything,

I don't want to die but it's my only way to survive,

I'm trying my hardest and they don't give a fuck,

They don't care that I needed love,

I tried everything to earn it,

But they are oblivious to how I'm feeling.

I try my hardest to be the best,

To smile and pass every test,

But I don't I cry and I fail,

And all my effort is to no avail,

I don't know what to do anymore,

I feel so alone now that you walked out the door,