Coffee - Kuroken

Chapter 15 - Future

(a/n) this chapter was revised like 10 times soooooooo its not my best work

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 I walked through the rain, glad to be in its peace. The small town was quiet at night, and on this particular one, the only sound other than my footsteps was the rain. I arrived at where I wanted to go, the local coffee shop(not Kenmas). It was only 8pm, so it should still be open.

The sign was on, so I walked into there, and up to the cash register, where someone was ready to take my order.

"Hello, what would you like?" Asked the guy working.

"Just a small hot coffee." I didn't want anything crazy.

"Ok! Your total is 3.78." I paid for the drink, and walked to a table to set down my stuff.

"Order 93?" Someone called from the front, and I knew it was for me. I walked back to the counter, and picked up the drink I ordered. I walked back to where I was sitting just seconds ago, and opened up my computer, hoping to get some work done. I logged into my computer, and remembered coming here during high school to do some late-night studying. The uneasy feeling of deja vu settled, and I silently reminisced on the times.

Thoughts of high school turned into thoughts about graduation, which turned into thoughts about Kenma. I had never thought about him as much as I have recently. Then it hit me. I still want him. I wanted him to come back, and for us to be happy again.

"That's it. I'm done." I whispered underneath my breath, opening the spreadsheet I needed to fill in and trying to block him out of my mind.

I wanted to fix it, but wasn't sure how. There are so many directions I could take, but my mind couldn't wrap itself around actually having a full conversation with other people around.

I got hit with a wave of deja vu, and wondered when I was in a similar position. In the cafe, working on something, thinking about him. I vaguely remembered something, but stopped myself before getting too far into my head. I pulled up another tab with information on it, and got to work.

~~blah blah work blah blah~~

It was now 11PM. I decided it was time to leave, and packed up my things delicately, trying not to make too much noise. I walked out of the cafe, and down the city street. I passed by the other coffee shop, and felt guilty for not going there, but I was thinking about things and didn't need a distraction.

I walked through the night, on a mission to get back home. I was cold, and tired. I also had to clean and do laundry once I got home.

My mind was blank as I walked another 5 minutes to get to my apartment, and once I was in there, I immediately felt tired.

"I can do the dishes tomorrow." I said to myself, walking into my room, which was surprisingly clean.

I took off my shoes, and got into my bed. I took out my phone, and opened snapchat again, something inside of me wondering why I was using it.

The screen lit up with a "6 years ago today!" sign, showing pictures of me and Kenma on a date to the movies together. I felt like crying. I didn't, though. I kept looking at the times, and thought about all that has changed in 6 years. My thoughts then went to what I thought about earlier. Still wanting him.

I felt tears come to my eyes, but not because I was sad because of what happened, or because of how things are going now. I was crying because I felt bad for Kenma, since after all this time I still want him, and he probably wants nothing to do with me. I'm not good for him.

I looked through the photos one more time, and decided to look at the last time I sent something to someone. The top 5 people were Bokuto, from 2 years ago, Kenma from 5 years ago, Akaashi from 2 years ago, and some random people that I was probably friends with in high school. I fought the urge to send a surprise picture to someone, but decided it's for the better that I don't.