Soundtrack to My Nightmares

i never knew i loved autumn this much until i met you

i must be lucky
i must have good karma
i must have played all the cards
right where they would have wanted.
the gods or nature or universe
whoever sent us here
knew just what i needed when
my downfall was creeping near.
it would never mean as much to say
i promise that i'll always stay
as opposed to loving you every night
and clearing every cloudy day.
it means so much more than to replay
those words without a real display.
my beautiful flower,
my darkest night,
you are the wine red rose,
the raven taking flight.
your beauty drew me in
that aching smile
those piercing eyes
but you would never guess
what made me stay.
i fell for you when i realized
everyone has a dark side,
a trauma,
a fear,
so much anger,
and so many tears.
that even just one word
means so much
and you can never take it back.
that no matter how angry you may be
there's still only one person
who can roll back the tide
and calm the storm.
that every step i take,
no matter who i am,
no matter where i go,
no matter what,
i need you there by my side.
i wish i could keep your laugh
singing in my ears forever.
i wish your smell was a perfume
i'd spray it on my pillow every night.
i wish my body resided in yours
so we could never be apart.
i wish our brains had a telephone
so we could exchange each others thoughts.
i wish you knew
that no matter what i do
all i want in this life
is to be close to you.
our families may laugh,
and they'll think that we're fools
but i understand now
i know why
all of those young couples
who only knew the other for a week or two
decided they would spend the rest
of their full lives together.
maybe i didn't know
the first time i set my eyes on you,
i didn't even know when we kissed.
but one day my soul attached to yours
and yours encapsulated mine.
if there is any day
that i wake up and you aren't near
i don't quite know what i would do,
but that is my greatest fear.
i'll want you when you hate me,
i'll want you when you're sad,
i'll want you when you're old and tired,
i'll want you no matter what
because you have done the impossible:
you have set me free
you're the only one who knows
how ugly i can be.
and somehow someway
regardless what i could say
even if i turned into a monster one day
i know without a doubt in my mind
you'd love me anyway