Soundtrack to My Nightmares

beware of kraken

what evil may lie beneath
the sweet angel's sunken eyes
what poison sits dwelling
in the heart of a purple berry,
so pretty and delicate.

how long can a circus clown
keep up his act?

driftwood scented misery is what you are,
a fucking blind hurricane rolling in
wherever you go.

i wish that i missed you
or that, at least, you missed me.
because now here i am
not feeling a goddamn thing.

but now here we are
a big envy green dragon
breathing dust and fire
preying on the beautiful, aching siren,
singing lullabies in the moonlight,
her beautiful tail whimpering at your sight.

what i never really wanted was a war
all i longed for was peace and quiet
for i knew both our wings would end torn
we wound up right back where we started

day by day
night by night
morning after morning
i wondered

if i would ever see you again,
if you had moved on,
if you were dead at a party somewhere.

and after months of isolation
with self esteem bone dry,
a shock collar clamped shut around my neck;
after months of crying myself to sleep,
wondering if i would ever escape,
if i would ever again have a life of my own,
if i could handle independence once she
had finally left me,
once she had finally decided
i was worthless.

"i did it for revenge," she had said.
to get back at me
for the same mistake she had made
in secret.

if you felt so drained by me
then maybe you should've considered
to stop draining me.
if you couldn't trust me
then maybe you should've considered
to stop trusting me.
if you couldn't love me
the way you were supposed to
then maybe...
it would've been nice
for you to have, at the very least,
pondered the thought
to stop loving me.

because i didn't have the strength to do it myself
and you were the only one who knew that at the time.