Chapter 3

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Chapter 3

Sola’s POV

That day ended with me not going to class. I just remained to stay in a stock room while forcing myself to write. For me to stop thinking about all the stuff that was running inside my mind.

After what happened on that rooftop, I don’t know what happened next. Hindi ko na inalam pa.

The only thing that I know is all the things that happened to them were my fault. I was the one who made them, to begin with. I was the one who wanted to let other people know how empty I feel right now.

I was dead tired when I got into the owner of this life's house. Agad akong napadiretso sa kaniyang kwarto matapos kong maglinis ng katawan. I tried to find something that I can use to go back to my old life.

Nang wala akong makuha’y natawa na lang ako nang mapaupo sa sahig.

“Why do I even want to come back to my old life when someone’s not even waiting for me?” natatawa kong tanong sa sarili.

Why do I even try to find ways when things are just the same either way? It doesn’t really matter anymore. Napangisi na lang ako bago naghanap ng ilang pupuwedeng pagsulatan dito. I need to write. I feel like I can’t breathe at all when I’m not writing. In this way, I can continue living.

I tried to open the owner’s laptop but I don’t know her password at all. In the end, I tried to write in a notebook but I can’t. I just keep on staring at it as if it will be able to write itself.

Napasabunot na lang ako sa aking ulo bago ko kinuha ang maraming disenyong notebook at nahiga na lang din sa kama. Napatitig ako sa notebook na ‘yon habang nakahiga. Unti-unti kong napagtanto na journal ito.

July 25, 20xx

‘Omg! I’m so happy writing this entry! I want to dance in joy because Mommy finally told me that she wouldn’t mind if I’ll be studying at Free Dream University! Daddy was so supportive. We’ll find a dorm na rin! Can’t wait to go to my dream school :))’

It looks like some of her entries in her diary are just months ago. She’s really lucky with her life. Napangisi na lang ako roon at ibinaba ang kaniyang journal. 

Nahiga na lang ako sa kama bago ko sinubukang buksan ang aking cellphone. Nagbabaka sakali lang na gumawa itong muli. Agad akong napaahon sa aking pagkakahiga nang nagkailaw 'yon. Natataranta ko ‘yon na binuksan. The phone is completely fine now subalit hindi ako makahanap ng signal. Napakagat na lang ako sa aking labi at napabalik sa pagkakahiga.

When I open one of my notes to write. I saw some of my entries.

June 6, 20xx

I stopped studying now. I need to write in order to live. I won’t chase after that dream school I have. I’ll just be thankful that I have writing.

Napangiti na lang ako nang mapait sa sarili bago binitawan ang cellphone na hawak. Should I just stay here? I should just live here. To begin with, writing is all I got kahit sa kabilang mundo pa man.

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