Lost And Found, Tales and Tells

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

Sola’s POV

A lot of events passes by and I’m still here. I don’t even know why is that the case. A lot of events happened too. I enjoy myself for those events but I don’t really know at all if I deserve it. There’s a time that I feel like it’s fine but of course, there’s a lot of time that the reality will slap me and will keep on telling me that it’s not really my life.

Like today. It’s Christmas. I visit my Mom and Dad’s house. No. They are not really my Mom and Dad. It’s the owner of this life’s parents. Now, I feel even guiltier that I keep on calling them that.

“How are you, Baby? Is my baby’s fine now?” tanong ng ina ng may-ari ng buhay na ‘to.

“I’m fine po…” ani ko na sinubukan pang mag-iwas ng tingin. I don’t really know how to face them at all. I was so awkward since the time that I came home here. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung paano ba sila pakikitunguhan.

“What’s wrong, Baby? I’m getting sad with the way you treat us. Why are you even being formal?” Umupo na ang Mama ng may-ari ng buhay na ‘to sa tabi ko. May pag-aalala mula sa kaniyang mukha. Ganoon din ang ama nito na nakatitig din sa aking mukha. Napatikhim ako at sinubukan na lang na ngumiti sa kanila. Ni hindi ko alam kung paano nga ba makikipag-usap sa mga ito.

For how many days I’m here at the house too, hindi ko magawang masanay na may magulang na tinatrato ako ng tama dahil kailanman ay hindi ko rin talaga naranasan. Napangiti na lang ako nang mapait.

If I’m in another universe or even if I’m just in a dream, I’m glad that the Sola in the other world is living the life that I never had.

“I’m okay po. I’m just really thinking about random things.” Awkward pa akong ngumiti rito kaya mas lalo lang nanatili ang naniningkit niyang mga mata sa akin.

“Aba’t nitong nakaraan ka pa nag-iisip, Anak, huh? Ano bang nangyayari sa ‘yo? Hanggang ngayon ba’y hindi ka pa rin nakaka-move on kay Hugh?” tanong nito. Bahagya akong napangiti, kasabay rin niyon ang sakit na nararamdaman. She’s really lucky. She can say whatever she wanted to say to her Mom and Dad while I don’t have anyone to tell my things with in my old life.

“And you aren’t telling us things like you use to before. Talagang magtatampo na ako sa ‘yo. Bihira ka na ring tumawag. If we won’t reach out to you, we won’t even be able to talk with each other,” aniya pa sa akin kaya napabuntonghininga na lang ako. It was so awkward for me whenever I talk to them through phone. I tried my best to answer their questions but I don’t know how to tell them stories and sometimes I can’t relate what they are saying at all.

“I’m sorry po…” mahina kong sambit.

“Stop cornering your daughter now, Elizabeth. She already told you that she’s busy with school. Nandito siya para magpahinga ngayon,” anang ama ng may-ari ng buhay na ‘to. Ni hindi naman ako makatingin sa kanilang dalawa.

Isang malalim na buntonghininga ang pinakawalan ni Mrs. Elizabeth.