im about to list every single thing that makes me feel alive... just because i sincerely feel dead.
im alive because i feel pain, a shit ton of it. physical pain, mostly emotional pain though.
i also do happen to feel beautifully amazed by simple things in life. i find nature beautiful. the green trees surrounded by different kinds of plants and herb. the texture and the colour of their leaves. the little mushrooms that grow in the weirdest creases of their trunks.
i happen to adore the ocean which is calming and grounding to me. i love the waves, how powerful yet settling they are. i love the various species that live amongst those water that i dont even know about.
i love the sky, i love sunsets the most i believe. oh how beautiful the sky is.
no one really knows what defines the universe. it is so incredibly large, mysterious and unknown.
eyes are what i love the most in this world. theyre the windows to the soul. they hide one's personal universe, yet every person's emotions are vividly expressed through the eyes. the spark that shines through when someone's genuienly happy, or when they get a little embarassed. every set of eyes is different, from grey to blue to green and brown. some are calming, some make us blush, some make us angry.
so next time you feel like life isnt worth living, go to your favourite person, in your own world. the one youre thinking of right now. and look into their eyes, look at all the tiny details that shape their world, then maybe youll see how important you are, not only to them but to yourself. it is impossible to look at yourself through someone else's eyes, but maybe if you look closely enough you'll catch a glimpse of fiery emotion. i am sure youd be thrown to the ground to see how special you are to that one person. i am so sure of it.
