I don't feel good, but I'm strictly incapable of showing it to the world. Even my closest friends.
Because I know that if I lose control for a split second it'll last longer than I can manage. It's so scary. I feel so alone and cold on the inside. Though what people really know me as is a chill and cheerful person.
Tell me? How can I escape this? It's. Not. Going. Away. I'm afraid I'll be stuck like this till the end of times.
I can fill this void, that nothing and no one can fill. I've tried. I really have. So goddamn hard.
Sometimes I wish to disappear.
I'm not here for me, I'm here for them. Everyone that I love, that I've ever loved. They give me the strength. I wouldn't be here without any of them. And I'm so thankful for that.
