my vision is blurry, my head is fuzzy. I cant even tell whats a lie and whats reality.
the shadows are starting to creep me the fuck out, the voices at the back of my head are becoming more and more intense. the reality is fluctuating a bit too much lately.
i black out for dayyyyyys and whenever i wake up i feel so empty and confused. i wish i knew whats happening to me. its not just some kind of psychiatric issue. someone tryna communicate with me through my senses. dont worry, i dont wanna hurt anybody (though sometimes i really do, but thats out of spite).
time flies by so quickly, it terrifies me. just thinking about tomorrow makes my skin cripple. i feel im losing it. everything. i cant tell whats real or not anymore.
you know when you get fucked up drunk and you wobble your way to the puke bowl? thats how i feel everyday of my life even when im sober.
im trying so hard to keep it all together to seem like a good and stable person. not sure how well thats working for me at the moment. im terrified of what i can do during those black out episodes. im also terrified as fuckkkkk of whats coming for me, if it keeps getting worse and worse, you know?
