My body feels numb. My brain feels numb. I can't cry, I can't feel anything. I don't want to remember this.
So I get high, I get high to numb everything.
It feels so good to not know what's going on sometimes. When you fully lose control of yourself. Then you black out and remember nothing.
Days like these feel less overwhelming. I wish I could go to bed some night and never have to wake up again.
I'm blurred, my vision's blurred and my way of thinking is blurred. I love it. Cause all the pain I've lived so far has been bottled up inside of me. Right now I am letting it out, all out. No shame at all considering I won't be remembering shit.
I'm not quite sure of how I should be expressing any of this. I certainly don't know how to deal with all of this. So I escape, I run. As fast as I can.
