Be With You

09

"Are you still crying?"

I glanced at Quen when he spoke after an hour of silence between us. We are both sitting on the side street near my department building where we stopped after walking away from Sean and the girl he's with. Hanggang ngayon iniisip ko pa rin kung sino 'yon? Ano ba talaga sila o bakit ginawa sa akin 'to ni si Sean...

But then, I think seeing them a while ago was enough proof that he really didn't like me at all.

Then why does he need to make an effort for me? To make time for giving me things? Surprising me?

"I'm not crying..." I answered him, trying hard to gave him a small smile but failed when a light sob escaped from my lips. Quen was just staring at me, I couldn't read what he was thinking. Sobbing continuously then wiped my tears with the back of my hand. "Why would he do that? Bakit niya ko niloko?"

I buried my face in my arms and let myself cry. Hindi ako nasasaktan dahil sobrang gusto ko siya but the thought of him doing effort just to make me agree to date him then betray me after makes my heart break more.

Pinaasa niya ako.

I thought he was different.

"Stop crying, that asshole doesn't deserve any tears from you." I felt his hand on top of my head, trying to make me feel better but his gesture started to make me cry more and I don't understand why.

"Am I not pretty?" I ask him in a small voice, turning my head a little to peak at him. He was looking in front and I eve I was crying I can't ignore the fact that he has a good side profile.

"You're pretty." Quen answered me, caressing my head now and turned his head to look back at me.

"Am I not smart?" I sniffed and wiped my tears.

"You're smart." He sighed and remove his hand on top of my head to remove his cap and put it on me. agin. Doon ko lang napansin na umaambon na pala.

Gusto kong isipin na malas talaga ako but I want to give myself a break and think that the dark sky was sympathizing with what I felt right now.

"Am I not worth it?" My own question made me let out a quiet sob. I hate it when times like this make me question myself.

Why do I need to feel like this? Okay naman ako ah.

"You're worth it." Quen sign again. His eyes softened as he stared at me. "Kj..."

"Then why?" I added almost a whisper now.

He was quiet for a second before answering me. "You just haven't found the right one for you."

I scoffed hearing him say that. "Bullshit." I turned my attention in front and stared at the raindrop starting to fall heavily.

Students started to run now but here we are both still sitting on the sidewalk.

Maybe I'm not really the type of person who's not worth pursuing.

Napaangat ako ng tingin ng tumayo si Quen sa harapan ko. I tilted my head to one side, looking at him confused.

"Come on." He said and offered his hand to me.