(DISCONTINUED) Bad luck or a blessing?~ (Tord/Red leader x f!reader)

A heartful truth CH.7

~last chapters ending~

"I'm sorry, I know you haven't been in England for long. But You knew who I was, and could've gone to the police and reported seeing me, saving all of England, so..." He glanced up at me, his expression becoming more serious.

"... why didn't you do so?"

~chapter 7: A heartful truth~

I couldn't move a thing as he said this. Why didn't I tell the police? I mean, he was wanted for a large amount of money, and he's right, I could've saved England by helping the police find him.

"I... I don't know..." I mumbled quietly. There was a long silence between us, it felt like forever as we stared into each other's eyes.

Then it hit me again, the thing I was thinking about earlier. I was nice to him, despite knowing who he was. I still came to talk to him now and then before the attack.

My gaze lowered down to the floor.

He must've felt lonely having everybody fear him, right?... Then again, it's understandable, he's a pretty intimidating guy.

He must've noticed that I was thinking about the actual reason. "You do know, don't you.". For some reason I didn't feel as scared anymore, it felt like the time we would hang out in the forest, talking about random things together.

I slowly nodded to his question, though I don't know if I should tell him. Next thing you know, what I was thinking was just in my head and he didn't care.

"It's just... I thought... It must be hard being feared because you won't have anyone to talk to normally anymore, like friends that you hang out with." I answered. I felt kinda relieved that I finally got it out of my system, but then again, he probably thinks what I said was pathetic and all in my head.

"I see." I looked up a bit to look back at him. He didn't seem like he thought my answer was stupid at all, he seemed kinda surprised.

Tords PoV

I desperately wanted to know why (Y/N) didn't go behind my back and told the police about me. Something about her always gave me a sense of comfort from the day I saved her. At first, I just thought she was gonna run away screaming and afraid, which is why I paid no further thought to her, but then when she came back. It became clear she was not afraid of me, yet I didn't know why. But now that she told me why she didn't turn on me, I realized there's way more to her than I thought. Going as far as feeling bad for someone like me, thinking as far as I might feel a little lonely, nobody thought that way of me before. And, I hate to admit it, but it did get kinda lonely sometimes, but I can't tell her that.

The last time I had any friends was when I was still living with Edd, Matt, and Tom, but since the incident, I haven't had anybody I could consider friends with. I guess you could say Paul and Pat were the closest people I had, but even then, talking and laughing like friends was not possible.

"(Y/N), would you be willing to join the red army?" I looked at her. Her expression was surprised and she seemed hesitant to answer like she was debating if she should or not.

After a little pause, she looked at me puzzled. "I don't know. I don't know if I wanna be a part of this. Wouldn't it make me a target for other people?"

She has a point. If she were to join, people would be after her as well.

But what if I protect her from them?

I sighed as I turned towards the window behind me. "That's correct, it would make you a target. But..." Slowly gathering my answer I get up from my chair and walk towards her, now standing in front of her. "... I will make sure you won't get hurt. I'll protect you".

As I said this I could feel my cheeks getting a little warm. The only thoughts filling my head were about her.

I want to protect her. I want her to be safe around me. And I will not let anyone cause harm to her in any way.

(Y/N) slowly looked up at me, it was obvious that she was thinking about if she should join or not. Her gaze slowly went to the window beside us "As long as I don't have to worry about getting murked every five minutes..." she slowly looked back at me "... I'm in."

Suddenly I felt a rush of happiness in my body, it was really important for me to gain her trust back after all this.

"Very well, I'll asign a room for you and get you a unifor-"

"-under one condition." (Y/N) interrupted as she looked back at me. "I want you to let my friends go.". I was hesitant to answer to her, I can't let them go free now. Not only will they just get captured and imprisoned again, they might also get killed.

"Listen (Y/N). If I let them go free, chances are they'll be brought back here. worst case scenario they might also get killed." (Y/N) crossed her arms in defense, she looked determined to get her friends out of their cells.

"Then what if I get them to join? Will you protect them as well?" She spoke up after a bit of thinking. I let out a sigh, can I really trust them? Sure I may not know them, but it seems they are close and important to (Y/N).

"If you do manage to get them to join, I suppose I can protect them too.". (Y/N) let out a big smile.

"Thank you, Tord! now, there's just one small problem..." I tilt my head a bit confused. "That might be...?"

"... I've never been in an army..."

~to be continued~

(A/N) Uh... I'm not dead. Sorry, things been rough. Ik I keep promising to write more since I've graduated, came out of the mental hospital and have been recovering, but I realised my main problem is putting ideas and images into words. I've always had a problem with expressing myself and my ideas through words, so bare with me. I found a way to get into my writing-flow though, just takes a cup of tea! anyway. Thank you for sticking by, and TYSM for 2k views, this is crazy. Next chapter is gonna be longer, promised! Just wanted to get this out as soon as possbile.

~ Tord signing out!!

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