One and only

Chapter 27~ period

Today I woke up

Mistake number one

Just kidding, I woke up super early to go to school but to my surprise I woke up in a bloody mess, yea I got my period that explains a lot about my emotional breakdowns yesterday

I guess I'm not that weak after all and it was all my periods fault

Or that's what I would like to think

I don't get my period regularly so whenever it comes it hurts like bitch

When I say hurts I mean so much that I quiet literally can't walk and painkiller don't do shit to me so here I am now not attending school third time in a row this week.

I feel like dying, it hurts so bad

But it doesn't hurt as bad as my pride yesterday when I was again sobbing in front of Grey, he was nice enough to pay for my groceries', make me breakfast and as soon as I heard the 'name that we don't speak of' I started to tear up and asked him to leave.

I stand up and went to the bathroom to only see I have few tampons and one pad left, I will need to go and buy some, what a pain in ass is to be a girl

Suddenly my thoughts are interrupted by a phone call, when I look down on a screen I could not recognize the number but I answered it anyway

"hello?"

"Bella are you okay" oh its Grey

"yea I'm fine"

"I thought you would come at school today"

"well yea no I'm not coming today"

"why"

"personal reasons"

"what reasons"

"just some stuff ugh" sudden pain hits

"is something bothering you"

"Grey I'm fine stop bothering me" and hang up

I know I was rude but I really can't with anyone's nagging right now so I go back to bed and try to fall asleep because its 9am and been awake since 7am

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After god knows how long I was woken up by a smell of a familiar food but I couldn't remember what it was, I go downstairs and see Grey in dark yellow apron

"it looks good on you" he turned around and was surprised that I was there?

"why so surprised" I question

"you were sleeping so heavily that I thought I would have little more time before I could finish cooking" I walk to the table and sit down

"Grey i'm sorry about earlier"

"no its okay you don't have to"

"no I have to and I'm also sorry about last two days the way I acted " I look down ashamed and embarrassed

"eat" he hands me plate of pasta that looked really good

"it's carbonara" Grey says

I knew the smell was familiar

"and take that painkiller over there"

"how do you know im in pain" I question being confused

"Bella I know you are on you Period" why so straightforward tho

God this is embarrassing

"sorry if I made you embarrassed" he apologizes

"it's okay you are right; I am on my period" I mean he is old enough to know what period is so yea whatever I don't care if he knows

After I was done eating Grey told me to rest and not to do anything, before going to bed I went to bathroom and saw new box of pads and tampons

Why is he being so nice

Few minutes pass by i went back to my room, took another book that I bought few months ago and forgot to read

"are you feeling okay" Grey suddenly appears out of no were and asks

"yea I was just about to read a book"

"oh yea?" He held out his hand to me and I handed him my book

"what is it about" he asks

"I don't know wanna find out" I suggest to read book together

"oh right you don't read, sorry forgot" I then add

"I do now" and with this three words he makes me smile.

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"what the fuck was that" grey says

We been reading this book past few hours on my bed

"it's not that bad" I lie

"it was amore"

"I mean the ending was mehh"

"okay the book was not that bad but the ending, yea it really was bad" he said and I agreed

silence appears for a moment but then I decide to ask him something

"have you ever had a girlfriend" he doesn't look like dating type of guy he's more like one night stand one, that's what I thought when I first met him but he's not that bad as a friend

"yes I had" damn

"can I ask what happened"

"there's nothing to say more than that she cheated" and my eyes go wide

"how did you felt" I question, maybe they weren't that serious

"destroyed, she knew all about my father which hurts even more" he opened up about his father and she still cheated, so she knew how much trust he had in her, damn

"do you think you will ever be able to have serious relationship again"

"I still hope so"

"but what about you" he adds

"I don't know, I really don't, the only thing that my past relationships whenever it was boyfriend or best friend made me realize that the entire world is a complex web of lies, well... at least my life is" i'm trying to not sound depressing and my sentences sounds more like statement

"there always is a lie, I mean first it was my family who started to play with my trust issues spesially my mother, second was my best friends people I knew the second I was born" Alex and Caroline

"and probably they are the whole reason why I am not the same as I was before my best friends... actually no one of them became my boyfriend later on, Alex"

"my first love" I add

I just noticed that I am not sobbing nor my eyes are glossy and first time after all drama with my ex I genuinely feel not disturbed but comfort in man's arms

"but it's okay i'm fine" I smile

"you know what's sad" he questions

"what"

"the way you say you're fine because you're not"

I suddenly flinch on the sound of thunder and the rain began

"no I am okay, shit happens but life goes on, so yea here I am" I state

"my mother taught me that talking about your problems makes you feel better in any way possible so I am here to hear it all"

Maybe

Just maybe

 it's time for me to trust someone other than Mia and just open up about it maybe not fully but some of it at least.