One and only

chapter 45~ February 24th

Flashback 2 years ago (mention of S.H)

I woke up it was February 24th my birthday, I know lots of people whose favorite day is their birthdays but mine is not one of them, I don't know but I never really liked it, but even tho I hated it Caroline and Alex they have never fail to surprise me. They are my childhood friends, but Alex is not only my best friend but he's also my boyfriend, it wasn't a big surprise for Caroline that we started to date, she knew we always liked each other since we were kids.

After I got dressed , i choose to wear a mini skirt with turtleneck sweaters after that I went downstairs, usually Alex and Caroline would be there holding pancakes with candles and would tell me to make a wash and blow the candle, but there was no one I was not expecting my parents to do it because they never do, let's just say my parents have their favorite child and I'm not saying this because I'm jealous, no it's a fact and they proved it with their actions, but as long as I have Caroline and Alex I'm okay with it.

It may sound weird to say that we are in love at this young age but the way he makes me feel can't be called nothing but love.

After I made breakfast and ate it, I wanted to hang out with Alex and Caroline so I called them but neither of them answered, maybe they were making surprise party for me? few second later my thoughts were interrupted by my sister

"happy birthday Isa" Lizzy says and hands me paper 'it's a gift" she adds

"ow thank you Lizzy" I smiled and look down at paper it's drawing me and her and I says 'happy 15th birthday' on it, she gives me the same gift every year and love it, I collect them and when I look at them I think it's cute how her hand writing gets better after years.

I decided to make a dinner for me, Alex and Caroline, I don't really like to cook I don't enjoy it but this time I wanted to make something special and different so I went to supermarket picked a few ingredients and one chocolate cake, my favorite. After hours of cooking it was finally all done, I checked the time and it was 7pm I gave them few more calls but still no answer.

Wait

what if something happened, oh my god I'm so selfish, i was so excited about celebrating my birthday with them that I haven't thought about what if they are sick or something happened to them

thank god my father taught me how to drive and lets me use his car sometime so I quickly took car keys and drove to Alex's house he gave me his house keys long time ago so I quietly opened the door in case he was sleeping I didn't want to wake him up.

I was worrying that something might have happened to him and worry on my face was noticeable when I get to his room and open the door and The image in front of me broke my heart in many pieces

Alex and Caroline together naked in bed kissing and cuddling

When Alex noticed me his eyes widened

I looked at Coralline and mouthed in denial ''no don't do this to me'' and shacked my head, tears started to drip

Alex stud up and said ''let me explain'' while he was trying to put his boxers and sweatpants on, I ran out of the house

he was fallowing and yelling my name begging me to stop, He grabbed my hand very tight what made me to stop and look at him

'Alex let go of off me"

"let me explain" he says

I scoff and say "explain what that you were fucking my best friend on my birthday" I rase my eyebrows,

''you'' I pointed my finger at him "you knew better than anyone about my parents and their relationship and you still did this"

"it was an accident a stupid mistake please Isabella I-'' I interpreted him

"accident?'' I slightly laugh and screamed at him "Alex you can't accidently fuck a girl"

He was speechless, I ran into my car and started to drive, after few minutes I stopped my car because I physically couldn't drive because of glossy eyes , I couldn't see, I started to cry so hard that I couldn't breathe, the fact that I not only did lost my boyfriend I lost my best friend, two people that cared the most about me or

did they

realization hits and I realize that I have no one now, am all alone, my heart hurts so much that I couldn't take it and I did what I thought I would never do again, I take a razor and cut my thigh,

I started to do this few years ago but after Alex found out he made me to promise never to it again, the whole reason of me starting doing it was because of all the pressure from my family, when I cut its like nothing matters anymore, physical pain makes mental pain just disappear, it makes all the pressure and all the thoughts go away like they were never there.

After few minutes or should I say cuts I feel... nothing.

My head feels empty, there isn't one thought about... anything.

I look out of window and see it's raining so I get out of the car and take a deep breath nothing feels better than the smell of rain,i feel rain dripping on me and soaking my clothe it feels so... good

Someone randomly approaches me

'' excuse me, you been standing here for a while is everything okay?" she asked looked at me up and down and her eyes widen ''oh my god your thigh is bleeding''

I smiled and replied "don't worry I just fell, I'm okay''

''I might be blonde but I'm not that stupid and I damn well know that didn't come from a fall" she said and I was speechless, everyone believed when I say it was from a fall I couldn't think of any kind of excuse

''sorry didn't meant to make you insecure or something like that, my name is Mia, Mia Monroe, I have first aid kit in my car let me help you to clean then cu-"she hesitated ''thigh'' she finished her sentence.