See Through // B.E. fanfic

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Emery's POV
her words echoed through my ears, 'i really like you.' i wanted to say it back i really did, but there was always that voice in my head telling me to run. it was what i did best, running, from all my problems. only this time there was no where to run to.

so instead i lied. i couldn't let her in no matter how badly i wanted to.

"i'm sorry billie, i don't think i feel the same," the words that came out my mouth were the exact opposite of what i felt, but this wasn't about me. this was about protecting billie from...me.

after the words left my mouth, a single tear drop trickled down billie's cheek. the walk to the car was similar to the ride. silent.

once billie dropped me off, i got out the car and tried to thank her before saying goodbye, but i couldn't get her to look me in the eye.

walking through the door, my chest was heavy. i went up to my room, changing and packing the last of my things, before falling into sleep and drowning in regret.
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the next day moved slower than ever. i never wanted to be back in chicago so badly. but another part of me practically begged that billie and finneas had a recording session that day just so i could see her again.

everytime i thought of last night i felt the guilt tighten my chest. i sat a the kitchen counter, completely in my own world.

"what's the matter?" claudia asked me.

"just homesick," i mumbled.

"that won't work on me, but if you don't want to talk about it that's fine too," claudia said as she sat on the stool next to me.

"i think im the problem, i know you have no idea what im referring to but just know i made a really stupid decision."

"is it something that can be reversed?"

"i mean i hope, definitely not now though," i explained.
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before i knew it, claudia and i were saying our goodbyes at the airport.

"let me know how the transfer stuff goes," claudia said as she brought me into a hug, "i'm gonna miss you dude."

"i'll miss you too, but i'll be back before you know it," i replied.

"have a safe flight em."

"thanks, bye claud," i responded before walking into the airport.

after a an hour of going through TSA, i finally boarded my flight back home. soon falling fast asleep in my window seat.
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the next day
after spending most of my day in bed, i'd figured it was best to unpack my luggage before the last days of break were over.

unexpectedly i heard a familiar voice at my door.

"annieee!" i said as i hugged my roommate as tight as possible.

"hi stranger," she replied with a smile, "how was LA?"

"i have so much shit to tell you," i laughed as we both climbed onto my bed.

after an hour or more of talking annie recapped, " so you're telling me you met the billie eilish. practically went on not one but TWO dates. kissed her more than once?? all to tell her you don't feel the same way."

"basically, yes," i sighed, " but the problem is i do like her back, i'm just an idiot and when feelings get involved i run."

"well a good start is that you can acknowledge it, do you think she'd be willing to talk to you when you go back?" annie asked.

i threw myself back onto the bed and let out a long sigh, "i honestly don't know, and if she doesn't i can't blame her."

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