See Through // B.E. fanfic

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Billie's POV
for the past few days billie and i have been spending more time together. whether we're at her place, her parent's house, or claudia and finn's.

today billie joined my realtor and i as i went apartment hunting. there were so many beautiful options but the last one completely stole my heart.

it was a beautiful 2 bedroom and 1 bathroom with a small balcony that overlooked the city. i immediately knew this would be my apartment. this would be the perfect room to paint in.

"so what'd think?" my realtor asked.

my eyes lit up, "i adore it, i think this is the one," i smiled.

"that is great, you don't have to make any decisions now though, you can definitely sleep on it."

i turned to bil, "what do you think?"

"it's beautiful, i think you should take it, at least before someone else does."

billie's words convinced me, i put part of my payment down and now all i had to wait for was the apartment to be ready and pass inspection before i could move in.

billie and i were in her car when my phone rang. it was dr.sterling, i answered and put the phone to my ear.

"hey, miss me so soon?" i teased.

"very funny, i'm calling to make sure you're okay. have you been wearing your glasses?"

"yes, mom i have," i said sarcastically laughed, "is that all?"

"no actually, i'm assuming you haven't found a new doctor in LA yet so i wanted to recommend you to one of my colleagues, Dr. Keller."

"you know me so well," i joked, using humor to avoid conversation on my condition.

"listen he's no me," she bragged, "but he's good and i'll have him keep me posted."

"thank you, i know i tease you, but i really do appreciate all that you do."

"no problem kid, now go have fun you're in LA. but safe fun," she redacted.

"i will, thanks again, bye."

"bye."

billie glanced at me, then back at the road.

"so who was that?" she said, gripping her steering wheel tighter."

"are you jealous?" i teased bil, poking her in the side.

"no,"she said and her cheeks immediately began turning red.

"well i hope not cause that was only my doctor," i laughed.

"i don't get jealous," she grumbled.

"sure," i smirked and tucked a loose piece of hair behind her ear, "it's okay though, i like my girls protective. to an extent."
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later that day, claudia and i sat in the guest room watching a movie as we waited for finn and bil to finish their recording session. i had my sketch book on my lap, lightly shading my art.

"what are you working on?" claudia asked.

claudia was the only person i shared my personal art with. that was because it all told a story. a story only i knew, a story i could only explain to claudia and know she'd understand the beauty in my art.

each of my drawings or paintings were real things i'd witness. only they were specifically seen through my eyes.

so in my art there would be black spots or foggy colors, similar to how my own eyes saw the world.

"um it's a piece i drew of billie the other day," i said showing her the page slowly.

"this is insane em, you got her freckles and everything oh my god."

"it was incredibly hard, the girl doesn't stay still," i laughed.

"have you shown her it?"

"i can't," i mumbled.

"why not?" claudia quizzed me.

"it's so personal claud, you know that."

"i do know that em, but you can't keep it from her much longer babe."

"i know," i sighed, "i just don't want things to be different between us."

i set my sketchbook on the dresser and went to shower.
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by the time i was out of the shower billie and finneas had finished their recording session. i went into my room when i noticed my book was open and sitting on the bed, not where i left it.

i immediately went downstairs to see if it had just been claudia taking a peek.

"hey did you move my sketchbook by any chance?"

"no why?"

"i left it on the dresser before showering but now it is opened on the bed. do you know where bil is?"

"probably on the couch in my office,"

"i can't believe her," i exclaimed and quickly went upstairs.

"billie were you going through my sketchbook?"

"oh yea, i was just looking for the drawing of me,"

"i cannot believe you right now," i said as i went back to the guest room and locked myself in.

"emery can you open the door please?" billie asked from the opposite side.

the only thing going through my my was what she thought of me now, what this meant for us, how i wanted this information to be said on my own terms.
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sorry for killing the mood😭