It's Gotta Be You (A Roc Royal love story)

Chapter 18 Why Are You Doing This?

Tuesday Morning April 9th 7:00 A.M.

Ciara's POV

Well im in class right now but Roc won't even look at me and he hasn't talk to me since yesterday. But if you can remember how quiet he was when I met him well not anymore.

Between second and third hour I saw him flirting with some other girl. I looked at him, then he looked at me. I quickly walked away so he wouldn't talk to me.

While I was running through the school, I ran into Prince.

Prince-Whoa Ciara where are you going?

Me-Anywhere but here

Prince-What's wrong?

Me-Roc doesn't love me

I leaned up against the wall, then slid down it crying. Prince sat next to me and rubbed my back.

Prince-Ciara that's not true

Me-Yes it is I feel like he just used me so he could have a baby he doesn't truly love me

Prince-What makes you think that?

Me-After I told him I didn't want to have a baby now he just left and I haven't talked to him since and just now I seen him flirting with some other girl

Prince-Ciara I don't believe that

Me-Well I do

Roc came around the corner and saw us talking. I got up and started walking.

Roc-Ciara!

Me-Leave me alone

Roc-Ciara

Me-Leave me the fuck alone Chresanto

Roc-Ciara Le'ann Simmons

Me-What? (crying) What do you possibly want from me? Im not giving you your baby so you're moving on. I should've known you didn't love me. I can't trust you or love again

Roc-Ciara im sorry I do love you

Me-Roc I don't want hear it go back the girl that'll love to have your baby and tell her how much you love her for having your kid

I walked away leaving him there with that thought. I went to lunch cause I guess that's how long I've been crying and yelling.

I went to lunch and sat at our table but I didn't eat or talk. When I looked up from my phone I saw Roc with the same girl and I cried.

Jamie-Ciara what's wrong?

Prince-That (pointing at Roc)

Nevaeh-Fucker what is he doing?

Me-He's hurting me like he said he wouldn't

Jamie-You know what im done

She got up walked over to him. I listened to their conversation.

Jamie-What the hell is wrong with you?

Roc-What's up Jamie?

Jamie-What's up I know whats up look over there (pointing at me) You see that girl the one that you love well you're breaking her heart into a million tiny pieces and all because she didn't want to be pregnant so when you're done being a little bitch you let her know

Jamie walked back over to us and I just looked at Roc who was still looking at me. I still had tears coming out of my eyes. But I got this vibe from him that he didn't care.

Me-You know what I don't feel good I need to go home

Jamie-Ok

I got up and left the school and went home. When I got home I changed into my pajamas, sat on my bed and stared out the window.

I heard the doorbell. I got up went downstairs and answered the door to find Roc standing there.

Me-What do you want? I mean you broke your promise for real and I know you don't care (tearing up) So please leave

Roc-Ciara wait

Me-What?

Roc-Im sorry and I love you so much and I didn't mean to hurt you and I wasn't flirting I was talking

Me-About what?

Roc-You about the good times we've had and everything we did

Me-Do you love me? Are you mad at me?

Roc-Baby I do love you with every fiber of my being and no im not mad at you

Me-Come here

He came to me and I kissed him. When the kiss got intense I jumped in his arms. He shut the door with his foot and carried me up to my room. When we got up there he shut my door with his foot, then laid me down in my bed.

He moved down to my neck and I moaned in his ear. He then pulled away and looked at me.

Roc-Are you sure you want to do this?

Me-Im sure

He kissed me again, then moved to my neck. I continued to moaned softly in his ear. He took off my clothes, then his.

When we were both completely naked he kissed my body and I just closed my eyes, taking in everything that was happening to me.

He went in slowly and gently, then he went deep. At first I was in pain but then it turned into pleasure. I moaned loudly and he looked into my eyes and I felt like we were the only two people on this planet.

When we both came, Roc got up and laid next to me. I was almost sleep when I felt his finger tips rub against my arm.

Me-That was amazing

Roc-Yea it was im glad you forgave me for being so hard headed

Me-Well I love you

Roc-I love you too (kisses my shoulder) My beautiful baby girl

Me-I don't want to leave this spot

Roc-Me neither. Ciara you're my everything my whole world

Me-I don't want to be apart from you again

Roc-Me neither

I flipped over so I was face to face with him. I looked at him, then traced my finger along his lips.

Roc-Your eyes are so beautiful I hate seeing tears in them

Me-Well then you must of been upset a lot

Roc-I was and it broke my heart when I seen you cry

Me-Well I was hurt

Roc-I know and im so sorry

Me-Baby I know you are

Roc-Well I don't think I could say it enough

Me-You have and im ok now I love you and I know you love me

Roc-I do and I have something to give you

He got up and wrapped the sheet around his body, then went over to his pants and got something out of his pocket. He came back to bed and laid down next to me.

Roc-Ciara when I first met you I knew I liked you and when I was alone with you and looked in your eyes I knew that I loved you. I know I hurt you and I promise I won't do it again but to keep this promise I want to give you this ring

The ring was a small cut diamond ring. I looked at the ring and him, then I felt a tear run down my cheek.

Roc-Ciara Le'ann Simmons I promise to love you and never let anyone hurt you including me and with this ring I want to make commitment to you until im old enough to make you my wife

Me-Roc I don't know what to say

Roc-Don't say anything

Me-How bout I love you and this is the best moment of my life

He put the ring on my finger, then kissed me. I pulled away and curled up close to him and he wrapped me up in his arms. We both fell sleep.