Getting Away From Him

Planning twins's 2nd birthday

Planning my twin's birthday party has been going so crazy. I wanted the works for my boys. It's been a week since I met Tommy. And I haven't seen him since that night. Actually, I've been avoiding him. It doesn't help Athena have been crying for him every night. I'm so close to giving in. Today, I had to bring all 4 kids with me to the club house to plan out all the party details. We're hosting it at the clubhouse since there's more seating. I was busy talking to the ladies and getting all the details sorted out when Wolfe came walking in, and right behind him was Tommy. I sighed and kept silently praying that my kids had stayed asleep. But nope, the universe has a twisted sense of humor. All four of them woke up, and my Athena and Vincenzo started to cry while Damian and Damon just looked at everyone. "Oh, what's wrong, my babies? Let's go check your diapers." I got up and started pushing my four seater stroller towards the restroom.



When Athena's eyes landed on the one and only Tommy. "Dada da da!!!!" Is all she kept yelling and literally started crying and twisting herself on the side of the stroller. "Athena baby, shhh, stop baby girl. Let's go change you." And nothing worked. I kept walking and didn't realize he was right behind us. Once we reached the bathroom, he unbuckled Athena and comforted her. I got out of Damian and Damon out of the stroller. They are potty training too, I sat them both down on their toilets we have here for them. While they sat and talked, I started to change Vincenzo's diaper. Tommy kept carrying Athena. The whole time I was changing Vincenzo's diaper, Athena kept hugging him and giving kisses. Once I was done with all 3 boys, I got Athena from Tommy. He bent squatted down and started talking to all three boys. Athena wasn't happy but didn't give me any hard time. She made sure she could stare at him the whole time. The boys took to him right away. I was so surprised how they were acting with him. Once we had everyone changed and made sure the boys washed their hands, we reloaded them in their stroller. But Miss Princess Athena wasn't having it. So Hades carried her out back to the table we were all sitting at. The old ladies made lunch, and for the kids, they made some Mac and cheese. For Athena and Vincenzo, I had their baby food. So while the boys sat in their booster seats and ate their food, I put the babies in their bouncer chairs to feed them. Of course, Tommy was sitting with us and in eye view of my little princess. Wolfe kept watching the interactions with my kiddos and Tommy. After all the kids were fed, we continued on the planning of the party. Tommy insisted on helping pay for it. He also asked if he could come over later today. I said ok, not sure what he wanted. Of course, curiosity gets the best out of us. I was buckling my kiddos back in their stroller to walk home, Wolfe decided to join us.
"What's up, I know you want to say something."
"I don't know. I trust Hades, but I'm just worried about how fast Athena has become clingy to him. I know it's not my place, but I want you not to rush."
"I know, I'm in no way trying to replace my men. On the other hand, I feel as if my kiddos are missing out on having that dad figure in the home. I don't know why, but I feel calm around him, too. Like I feel as if he's my lifesaver somehow. I don't know Wolfe. I feel awful for feeling this way. But what am I supposed to do. I'm a young mom of 4 beautiful kids and a widow. I need a break from the universe." With that, Wolfe hugged me, and I started to let my tears fall. Am I wrong for wanting that companionship with someone? Am I wrong for wanting my kids to experience having a father around and not just videos and memories of them? Wolfe helped me bring in my babies inside. They fell sound asleep from our short walk. Shortly after he left, I went back to my living room and laid on my couch to start seeing what was good on Netflix. Right when I was going to watch the conjuring 2 again, I heard a light tapping on my front door. I got up to open it, and there stood Tommy.
  "Sorry for coming over so early. I wanted to see if you need any help?"
  " Oh, yeah, no, the kids all fell asleep. Do you want to come inside?" I opened the door wider and stepped aside so he could come in. I went back to the couch and sat down with my blanket on my lap. "Do you want anything to drink or eat?"
"No, I'm good for now. What were you watching?"
"I was about to start watching the conjuring 2 again. Have you seen it?"
"No, I saw the first one but not the second one."
"Oh, it's good. Do you want to watch it?"
"Yea, put it on." With that, we made ourselves comfortable on the couch and started the movie. I made sure it wasn't too loud to wake up my babies. Halfway into it, I got up to get some ice cream and take out my breast pumps out. Once I put the milk in the storage bags, I grabbed the small thing of pecan ice cream and two spoons. I sat next to Tommy, and we both started eating the ice cream. Some ice cream smudged on the side of his mouth. I started to chuckle a bit. "What? Why are you laughing at me?" I shook my head and pointed to his mouth.
"You have some ice cream right here." I then reached out to clean it off. When I was moving my hand away from his face, he grabbed my wrist. In a tender way and what he did next shocked me. He licked my finger that cleaned the ice cream away and pressed a kiss on the tips of my fingers. I couldn't stop staring at him. He then made a move to lean a bit more down, and that's when I felt his soft plump lips on mine. I gave into his kiss automatically. I ended up straddling his lap. We were pretty much fighting for dominance in the kiss, and he had a tight grip around my waist with one arm, and the other hand was holding on to my ass. He kept grinding me against his hard member poking through his jeans. It's been so long since I had any sexual contact. I needed this so much, but I pulled away. I couldn't do this. I felt as if I'm cheating. I leaned my head against his shoulder and mumbled. I'm sorry. I got up to walk away when he reached for my hand.
" What's wrong? Did I read into the connection I felt between us wrong?" I shook my head, and tears pricked my eyes.
"I haven't been with anyone else besides my men. They were the last ones I have ever kissed or been with. I feel as if I'm cheating on them. I know it sounds dumb but I feel as if this is wrong somehow." He didn't say anything. Great, now he thinks I'm nuts.
"Come here." That was all he said. I walked up to him, and he wrapped me in his arms. It felt amazing being in his strong arms. He then spoke into my hair while placing small kisses on the top of my head.
"You're not wrong to feel the way you do. Plus, we barely met last week. I want to see where this goes. I'm in love with all your kiddos, and I don't know what you're doing to me. But since I've met you, you are all I think of morning noon and night. Please give me a chance to be that man for you?" I looked at him, shocked, to say the least. I knew in my heart that I should move on, but it's easier said than done. So I decided to say yes to him.
"Yes, I want to try too. You won me over since the first day Athena reached out to you. Just your reaction to her and my boys is so natural and isn't forced. If their giving you the chance, then I should too. But honestly, if you ever lay a hand on my kids or me, we will be done."
"I would never raise my hand to any of them, including you, sweetheart." Tears rolled down my cheek. Him calling me sweetheart reminded me of Vince. Tommy wrapped his arms around me again, and I cried for a bit longer until I pulled away to go clean my face. Once I came back into the living room, he was there sitting with the blanket held open for me to sit with him to finish the movie. I sat cuddled into him. Once the movie finished, I heard my boys call for me.
"Mommy duty calls."
"I'll help you." With that, we both walked into my room, and all four kids were laying there. The boys were hugging their siblings. As soon as Athena saw Tommy, she reached her hands out. The three boys looked up, and my Damian and Damon both asked, "Is this daddy?" I didn't know what to say. I looked at Tommy, and all he ended up saying was, "Come here, little guys, let's get you both on the potty." Once I had Vinny changed and Athena, the boys both came back hanging on to Tommy. He was playing airplanes with the boys. They kept laughing and telling him to spin faster. I sat there with my little ones with a smile on my face from laughing at the cuteness of them three together.