Getting Away From Him

Serene~P.O.V~

  Diesel came home the next morning and I was up so early from being so nervous. He rode up on his bike, the boys were still asleep. Kind of glad for that, this morning was pretty cold. The sky was pretty cloudy and it truly looked like it was going to rain. I stood on the porch waiting for him to walk up to me, he had on his cut with his shades on. He truly looked so mouth watering, panty dripping hot. I needed to feel his warmth and just to be his in every way possible. He came up to me and wrapped me up in his arms.
"Hey, beautiful. I've missed you so much." He lifted me up and I instantly wrapped my legs around his waist. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him. He put me against the door. I pulled back and put my forehead against his.
"We have to talk, and we have an unexpected visitor as well." He gave me a confused look. I wiggled for him to put me down, and of course on cue the door opened and there stood Diesel with two crying angels in his arms. I walked up to him and got Damian out of his arms and started to soothe him. They were so red from crying so hard. Since I started breastfeeding these little ones have gotten so clingy to me. Worst than before. I sat on the sofa and started to breastfeed my baby Damian. Damone was still crying a bit.
"Can you give me Damone please?" Diesel walked towards me and gently placed Damone in my right arm and I latched him on as a football hold. I looked up and both of them was completely staring at me. I cleared my throat and decided to just get to the point. "Hmmm, so I guess we'd should just be straight about it all and talk on what's going on. Diesel came here the day you left. He asked for me to let him be apart of our boys' lives and wants to discuss something with you. Right Diesel?' He gave me a hard look, a look I know all to well from him. The look that says if he was able to I would be punished until I couldn't scream from all the pain he would've inflicted on me. It gave me shivers down my spine. Like how do I even play this off. He looked away from me and straight at Vince.
"Yeah, I wanted to talk to you about the conversation Serene and I had the other day. So... I was saying how I want to be apart of our boys' lives and I can part away from her, that we should think of being in a poly relationship' I was waiting for the shoe to drop or whatever that saying goes. But nothing all I got was nothing at all. This time Vince looked right at me and asked, 'what do you want beautiful?' I looked at him with a confused look like what does he mean what I want? I love my husband and if Diesel treated me like Vince we would've worked out perfect. But he didn't he treated me horribly and now I'm here with twin boys from him and he's now asking for this crazy arrangement. Would Vince really be ok in sharing his wife in every way possible of not? I couldn't stay quieted any longer I know what I need to say.
"I want is our babies to grow up in a home where they are love and have a great life and a happy home. I want is what will us all happy. I don't want to say yes to Diesel without knowing exactly how you my husband really feel about this. And if we us 3 adults agree to this, we have to be in a clear and open about it all. I need to know that no one in this room is making this decision on a desperate reason. This has to be a decision this is 100% for the right reasons." They looked surprise on my answer and they both sat down across from me being silent. I had two beautiful boys nursing on me and their fathers both quiet.