Poems About Life

lessons

You were my sun and stars
I would've bled myself dry for you with a smile
I would've gone to Hell's gates to fetch you anything you wanted
How did I not realize that your tongue was forked?

You were my first love and I thought it was true.
Then I grew up and found I had no room for you
For your jealousy and fear and deep roots
Found out exactly what kind of person you were

I remember when you were my white knight
When you promised to steal me away from my tower
Instead you handed chains to my keepers and said
"Don't trust her"

Does it all stem from you? A guardian you never were
A protector you couldn't be
Or from the partner you chose, the one who breathed life into me?
The one who I curse endlessly and secretly
And can never bring myself to forget

Did you teach me to love the taste of poison or did I learn it myself mistaking it for ambrosia?

Is there a way to heal this pain? My constant companion for all these years I can remember
Or is my only option to hide behind my broken wall and shield my eyes from the shards?

Are my scars there anymore? Can I find a way to trace them out and learn them again?
Is there an ending to the rainbow or am I just chasing a shadow that never existed?

The gods tell me to be patient and good times are coming
And I wonder if I can make it
None of the lessons you taught me prepared me for the light
The only thing I ever learned was how to know the dark. To feel the chains on me and know that I made them.