Poems About Life

What if?

You tell me you love me
You want to give me all of you
You try to protect me, to let me be
You want me to love you and I do, it's true.

But what if
What if I'm too shattered to give you all my pieces?
What if my wall is too high for you to climb completely?
What if I can't see you clearly because I'm too busy grieving?

Grieving the life I could have had, grieving the girl I could have been, grieving for my sisters and the pain I gave them that was mine alone.

What if I'm too afraid to fall?
I trust you but I don't know if I can trust myself.
I can't see a crack in you. I know you feel sad and angry and you have your own past. But you see me.

You see how some days I'm barely breathing. You see how the only thing holding me together is you. You see all my missing pieces and you see how I fell to the ground and shattered like glass.

Can't you see you're too good for me? How did I get so lucky to find someone so patient and understanding as you?

And how can I keep myself from hurting you? How can I dull my sharp edges? How can I tame my wild tongue? How can I be as good as you want me to be? How can I put my feelings into words?

How can I tell you how in love I am with you? How can I show you the world I want to give you? Are my words enough? Will a lifetime be enough to fix what's broken and learn to fall again?

I love you so much and the depth of it scares me. What if this breaks me too? I wish you could fix my wings so I wouldn't be afraid to fall.

But if I'm not afraid to fall then how can I ever learn to trust in us?
An us that is strong and brave
An us that is fighting to win this
An us that's me and you and our friends and family

I love you more than I can handle but I hope to God you can show me how to. Because you love me more than enough and you never get scared.

What if I fall?
But, my darling, what if we fly?