Worlds Going By (TWD x Reader)

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Would it Have Been Better

Don't Blink-Kenny Chesney

Y/n POV

I had decided to leave the room. I couldn't stand watching Carl in pain. So much pain. I'm so sorry, Carl. I let go of that thought and headed to a near by window. The window was open a little and was near the porch. There's was a nice little chair near it, and I sat down putting my face in my hands. Why didn't anybody tell me Carl got shot sooner? I should've been with him....but then I wouldn't have never found Sophia.

I heard the sound of a door open quietly. Foot steps approaching were heard. It was quiet, until the silence was finally broken. "Maybe this isn't a world for children anymore."

Lori? I perk my head up, listening to who Loris talking to. "Yeah well, we have a child." I hear Rick state. "Carl is here in this world now-"

"-Maybe he shouldn't be." My eyes widened at her remark. No. You can't just give up on Carl! "Maybe this is how it's supposed to be."

"You can't mean that." It stay silent for awhile. The crickets making noise is all I hear. "Okay. All right. I can understand that thought crossing your mind." Rick states angrily this time.

"It didn't cross my mind, Rick. I can't stop thinking it....Why do we want Carl to live in this world? To have this life? So he can see more people torn apart in front of him? So that he could be hungry and scared for however long he has before he-" Lori doesn't sound as angry now, but she sounds sad. "-So he can run and run and run and run a-and then even if he survives he ends up....he ends up just another animal who doesn't know anything except survival? If he-" Why does she think this. We can survive. We can find a safe place-we are in a safe place. "If he dies tonight, it ends for him....tell me why it would be a better way for him." It stay silent for a long time, so I lean my ear closer to the window.

"What changed?" Rick questions.

"What?"

"Jenner offered all of us a way out. You asked him to let us keep trying. You-you begged him. "For as long as we can," you said. What changed?" Rick spat back in her face. I could hear and Lori's voice that she hesitated.

"There was a moment the other day-it was just a second, but I forgot Jacqui was dead. I turned around, I wanted to tell her something. I-I almost said her name. It was just a second and then-and then I remembered.....But then I realized she didn't have to see any of it. The-the highway, the herds-Sophia, Carl getting shot, Y/n being gone for hours-she...she didn't....she doesn't have to be afraid anymore. H-hungry. Angry. It hasn't stopped happening, Rick....It's like we live with a knife at our throats every second of every day. B-but Jacqui doesn't. Not anymore. And then....I thought maybe Jenner was right." I was surprised how I was mention in that conversation and how everyone still thought of Jacqui. I wish she was still alive.

"I don't accept that. I can't accept that. That man surrendered. It doesn't matt-it doesn't matter what he said. None of it....You really think it would be better if Carl...." I lightly shake my head at this. "If we just gave up?"

"Tell me why it would be better the other way....Please."

Lori POV

I walked away from Rick, and he followed behind me with a sad glance. We had decided to go back inside for Carl's sake. When we got in, we saw Y/n. She was standing in front of us, holding the railing by her. She looked down lightly, before bringing her head to us. Rick nodded at her lightly. She nodded back and carefully went to the top of the stairs.