Autophobia || Jakehoon

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Jake groaned as he woke up, wanting to stay in the warmth that currently surrounded him. Naturally nuzzling into the embrace he was currently in. Content in the peaceful atmosphere until the events from last night flashed through his head, and he realised he was still trapped in Sunghoon's arms. Heart beating fast as all the words from his friend repeated themselves again and again.

Pulling away a little, he peeked his eyes open. His roommate thankfully seemed be out cold. As expected, he was going to have a killer headache when he woke up. Due to this, he would be able to move out of the boy's arms without waking him. Hopefully. If this were any other day, he'd gladly remain in the hold forever, his mind and body very satisfied whenever he was in Sunghoon's arms. Unfortunately for Jake, he had work in the morning before his lectures in the afternoon.

Internally crying at his schedule, he carefully removed himself from the taller who stirred and complained a little at the lack of something to cling to. Jake held his breath for a second or two until he watched Sunghoon go completely lax, soft snores filling the room once again.

Chucking, he head for his room for clothes and a towel to clean up before leaving. As the warm water hit his body, Jake finally allowed himself to think over his predicament, you could say. Still being completely unsure on the real stance of Sunghoon's feelings. He knew the simple solution would be to just ask. But well, Jake certainly wasn't a simple guy. His high functioning anxiety made that severely more difficult. And his crippling obsession of thoughts that he wasn't worthy of romantic love, made that severely more difficult. Hence why he had been single the last 19 years of his life.

He hoped, Sunghoon would come to him first. It was selfish to ask that, as Hoon was mainly the one who had initiated things throughout their friendship. However, Jake felt like he had a pretty valid excuse.

He finished up quickly in the bathroom, changing into his clothes, and slinging the towel round his shoulder for his still damp hair as he went into the kitchen for something to eat before he left for work.

To his surprise, Sunghoon was there, downing what seemed to be tablets and a glass of water. Seems like he's woken up happy, he laughed to himself.

"Feel like shit?" He suddenly asked, walking round the corner into the same room as Hoon. Startled by the sudden appearance, he jumped a little and placed a hand over his head as he felt a pang of pain. Jake now chuckled aloud. "Sorry, didn't mean to scare you."

"It's no worries..." he said, brushing it off. The blonde watched a red tint dust over the male's cheeks. He assumed it was just from the embarrassment of getting spooked. "Yeah you could say that. My head feels like it's gonna explode." He groaned, bringing up his hands to massage at his temples. Eyes shut firmly, a pained expression on his face.

Jake wondered, if he had remembered their conversation from last time. Praying that he did, he didn't think he could live without finding out if those words were genuine or not. Actually scrap that, he could definitely live without being told that it meant nothing to Sunghoon. To say the least, he wouldn't be able to explain the heartbreak If that was the case. That all those words spoken, that seemed so sincere were just the mill of the moment, and an intoxicated mind. He felt sick, a frown on lips he couldn't control.

However, if it was the other option? He definitely wanted to know.

He hummed, reaching out and getting a breakfast bar from the cupboard.

"You were completely out of it when you came home, you weren't even gone that long." He teased, trying to change the focus in his mind, he glanced over to the younger. The pink hue on his face only seemed to turn red. Awkwardly smiling.