A Fantasy Is What I Desire (KDA x Male Reader)

Me. (prologue)

Fortunately, my apartment had two bathrooms, so we didn't have to wait for each other to finish. Still, Evelynn does look very different. I'd say she 'awakened' her ability if I didn't know any better. Not that she didn't appear to have any before. Perhaps this is part of her talent? That's something I'll think about later. But my mind keeps returning to what happened near the end back at the yard... I didn't see it, but I could feel it. Whatever happened killed or at least made those guards vanish.

Kill?

The thought made me hold back disgust. Growing up I've had plenty of chances to see death, most of them weren't by choice but a few were the results of my actions. I thought I might be able to get over it but if just the thought of me being responsible for someone's death is enough to make me feel disgusted then I guess I'm not as strong as I thought myself to be.

Then... what do I have? Sure, I can handle myself well enough alone but barely. How do I take care of someone else too? I'm way in over my head. I'm not that smart, I'm not that fast, and I'm not that strong either. For some reason whatever they call 'puberty' hasn't hit me yet either so what do I have to my name other than being able to survive alone?

I try to think of something but all I get is the sound of droplets hitting the bathroom floor. Releasing a deep breath I rest my head against the wall in front of me. The shower faucet doesn't stop its steady stream. At the end of it, I guess no matter what I try to do, I still am useless. Even to her, I was useless. Nothing but dead weight that got her killed in the end. All because she took care of me. I know that if she didn't choose to save me, she'd be right here. Still alive and well.

That thought hurts the most. What am I doing in the meanwhile? I barely have any motivation or ambition, hell I don't even know what I want.

I'm lost without you...

I miss you.

Sis.

"y/n, are you going to be done soon?"

Evelynn?

"Uh, yeah, almost done."

"Okay. You were taking a bit too long so I thought to drop by. Carry on."

Was I? I suppose I have a habit of losing myself. Well... better finish up then.

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It didn't take long for me to be done with my morning routine. Even back there at the 'yard,' they taught me what hygiene was. Looking back, I have to say that I am grateful for that small positive. Waiting in what I presume was called the living room, I sit down on the worn couch in amazement. In not less than 2 days, I got to live my dream of being free.

Even though, I accomplished it. I must say I desire much more now. Is that being greedy? Not something to worry about, many want more than what they have constantly. What's so wrong with that? Besides, y/n was at the centre of those desires. He was the key. I'd be able to experience it all with him by my side. Idly, I wondered why I was growing this attached to him.

Snapping out of my thoughts. I felt a change in the emotion around me. The steady stream of positivity that was sent my way by y/n was disrupted. It started turning sour, while it was nourishing. I hated the way it made me feel, it wasn't the same as the others, instead of fear or pain. I just felt sadness. I didn't like this in the least. It was also the first time I felt something negative from y/n. It was enough to worry me a bit.

Walking towards where he was, I knocked.

"y/n, are you going to be done soon?"

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Wearing my clothes I headed down to where Evelynn was waiting.

"Sorry, I took so long."

"It's Alright, are you feeling okay?"

"Yeah, why?"

"Just something called 'intuition'"

Sis used to bring that up all the time, it always irritated me but now I could only look at Evelynn in surprise.

"You know what that is?"

"Books can be quite informative, darling."

Ah, yes. That too.

"I forgot to ask in the morning but, why are you calling me darling?"

She just smiled at me.

"Does it bother you?"

"N-No"

"Then that's all there is to it then, okay?"

"But wh-"

"It's just that simple, if you want me to stop you just need to ask. Darling"

She said as she came closer to me and pet my head. She just treated me like a pet even though I'm the one that took her in.

"H-hey!"

"You can be so cute y/n."

She continued to pet me. My cheeks flushed in disapproval, being treated like I was a kid in front of her wasn't charming in the least but if it made her this... happy? then whatever I guess, we had to focus on other things anyway.

"Well if you're done. We need to go meet someone to help us with cash."

"We're going to someone?"

Looking at Evelynn more clearly, I felt a tad bit bad I hadn't offered a change of clothes yet. She had only been wearing the grey shirt and pants she had since the yard. They wouldn't hide her features very well. I better let her use my sisters' clothes. Even if it might be a bit difficult for me to do.

"Yeah... he's helped me out a bunch of times and he's very close to me. He'll definitely help. But before that... would you like a change of clothes? It must not feel very fresh, plus it doesn't hide your... um.... features very well."

She nodded before she spoke.

"Well if you say so and yes, thank you. Someone's paying close attention to me, I'm flattered."

A small blush lit my cheeks.

"Just follow me and change please."

She rubbed my head before she stopped.

"Sure, darling."

While I didn't see her as I turned around, released from her hold. I could tell she was holding back a laugh.

Why was she this hard to deal with...